Affection, I crave affection but not just affection, oh no it's more then that I want to be noticed i want people to pay attention to me. Think about me compliment me, I want you to obsess over me. Make me feel wanted, claim me as yours, protect me, worship me. I want you to make me feel as if I'm the only person in the world.
But I wont let you know that. I'll deny your compliments, your praise. I'll deny that I lust over your affection of me. I'll deny that I crave your love, even if I myself dont know the feeling of love. I wont let you know that I want to know what love feels like.
If you have a crush on someone how do you know? Maybe it isn't actually a crush. You just admire them. Maybe you want to look like them or is it that you just want to be them? It could be a crush but how do you know? Is it because you feel the need to have their affection? Their attention? Do you want to be with them? Or do you want to be them?
Affection, I crave it I want it to fill me up and cure the blackness that dwells in me, the loneliness. Eat me up. Pleasure me in all the ways you can. If it be your sexual desires then so be it. I want you to use me.
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i give you my heart.
Non-Fictionfrom affection to happiness. please be gentle with your words. this is my heart your holding in your hands. TW// mentions of self-harm, one curse word, and it may cause some emotional distress
