Holding me Down (xxxHolic Fan Fiction)

(Picture to the side is Himawari)

Prolouge:

Himawari Kunogi, the girl with bad luck everywhere she goes- everybody knows about her at school- and she's friends with two funny comedian actors that one day I should meet, along with a pretty lady who one of the funny guys worked for. She went to a temple to tell Ghost Stories with them a . Well, thats what she tells me. I'm not allowed to go to school. If I go outside, I will get hurt. Mother and Father know I am in the house. They acknowledge that I exist. But I do not live.

I almost finished up the Bentou for my twin sister. We need more avocado.. Sighing I just shook my head- putting the bentou in plastic bags and holding them in my arms for my twin who was coming down the stairs. It was time for her to go to school. We were both born on November 27th. Himawari and I. However, we look different. She always looks so happy, and smiles. Her soft black hair is long and curls up in the two ponytails. She's pretty and all the guys like her. While Im just.. me. I have choppy black hair that Himawari cuts herself, into a nice cut.. sometimes. But thats okay. I still love her.

"Good morning Ameyuri-chan!" Himawari called to me. I looked at her for a moment, and nodded. Feeling a pull on my arms and legs, as if something wanted to rip them off. Himawari took the bags from my hands, not touching me. She smiled happily at me. I nodded again, giving her a silent 'good morning'.

"Go back to your room and rest, okay Mey-chan?" My twin told, and asked. I nodded one last time before moving up the stairs slowly, my hands weakly held onto the railing, and I felt something pull on my foot, making me fall down onto the stairs in silence.

"Ameyuri-chan?" Himawari gasped, "Are you alright?" She asked me, watching as I weakly picked myself up. I nodded to her question.

"I have to go, are you sure you'll be alright? You know Mother and Father aren't home. If anything happens I can't do anything. Please be careful, alright- Mey-chan?" I nodded, and went to my room as fast as I could. The minute I stepped into my room, all the heaviness seemed to disperse. My breathing got easier and my bones didn't feel like they were being crushed. The candles around the four corners of my room flickered softly. 

I walked over to my bed and plomped down onto it, closing my eyes, falling asleep.

This is the daily thing for me.

I only exist. 

~ ~ Third POV A Week Later~ ~ 

"Yuuko-san! Watanuki-kun! Doumeki-kun!" Called Himawari, running torwards the three said people who sat having a picnic. The two boys, Watanuki and Doumeki, went to Himawari's school. The two were the so called "Comedy Act". Watanuki had a crush on Himawari, and was somewhat bi-polar. He also had the ability to see spirits. Doumeki is a silent type of guy, his face somewhat emotionless and serious, and he had an ability to keep spirits away.

"Himawari! I'm here!!" Watanuki called, his face happy and dazed.

"I'm really sorry! I was the one who invited everyone, yet I was the one who got here late.." Himawari apologized.

"Its okay! Don't worry, come sit. Would you like some Onigiri?" Watanuki asked, smiling, giving her, his seat.

"Ah- Thank you." Himawari said, taking one.

"Hello Himawari-chan. What was the thing you wanted me to do?" Yuuko asked with a smile. Himawari looked somewhat troubled.

"Well, there are two things. If thats alright." Yuuko nodded, a signal for her to continue. "The First is my sister."

"You have a sister?!" Watanuki asked. Himawari nodded, looking down. 

"She's my twin sister, and she's very sick. The doctors dont know why, but she just can't talk, and she's incredibly clumsy. She spends all day sleeping, and does nothing but stare at nothing all day. She gets sick so easily..  Sometimes she words things to herself.. The doctors can't do anything about it. They can't figure out what was wrong with her.. and I was wondering if you knew anyone that could help." Himawari said, putting her hand by her chin in thought.