A Wish

Crush

Lisa

A month after I met Jennie Kim, I swear, everyday was glowing

In the morning, I get to wake up an hour before my alarm clock, I just get the news that she was getting late for work because her house is on Myungyeong, kilometers away from the company

She's having a hard time searching for a parking space so I wait until I saw her car, I simply drive my car away so she can have my parking space

If they're having lunch outside, I often hack her clash war account to put extra diamonds or even a new skin for her character, playing game is what she do before she start to work

And after our shift, I always take overtime just to see her, see also likes to work overnight, she even do the task of others, she's very kind

I wait for her until she was done, then its time for me to clean her desk, I remove some papers and arranged some folders, I even clean her computer caches and junk files

I also fix some of her favorite character figurines which is a green aliens from toy story

That's my everyday routine, I get to know her more even if we didn't talk after that day I help her with her computer

I'm contented just by seeing her from a far, I don't have the guts of talking to her again, my social skill in on level negative one, meaning, I'm nervous

Nervous and afraid at the same time, I don't feel this thing in other people that I talked to, it's just

I have a crush on her, really, I think because of her smile, her smile because of her gay best friend Yuan, I love how she didn't care about exposing her gums

Her uncontrollably laugh, I like it when I saw her watching a funny video that I put on her files

Her sudden tears, I remember how she cries when she forgot to feed her dog, she panicked and hurriedly went out to drive back

I really like those characteristics of hers, and the looks were bonus, she's like a beautiful girl in town, with her light colored dress

But sadly, I will never be hers, do I assume much? I'm hurting myself though

Last night, I went out to her table to clean up, I usually clean her computer the last, while removing junk files, I saw a popped up icon of our boss

Scared to assume anything, I open it, revealing their conversations

'Lunch tomorrow?'

'I can't wait to see you'

'I know I only met you yesterday but, I feel so attached to you'

'Can I court you?'

That's the last one he sends to Jennie, I don't know if I should get jealous or what

But I'm sure if Jennie replied yes, I would totally get hurt

I don't even have the rights to get jealous, I'm not even her girlfriend

Either way, I'm just here for her, staring from a far, watching

Do I look like a stalker?

I don't mean no harm tho, I just care, I just felt the need of seeing her everyday, even if we don't have this closeness, at least I feel connected

With my own feelings for her, through her

I'm at my desk, googling the tune of an old song, I just discovered that Jennie likes to listen to some old songs, I guess if I put some songs in files, she might like it

As I hum the song, I notice everyone was leaving the place, it's lunch time

I took a glimpse on Jennie's table, she's yet to leave, her friend Yuan and Grace were out of sight, I saw someone walking through

A man with fancy coat stopped at Jennie's, carrying two lunch boxes

I could see Jennie's eyes twinkle from here, how she push herself on the side while the man was pushing a swivel chair beside Jennie

I slowly sat, not wanting to see some interaction

I see...

I immediately hacked her account, trying to know more about their conversation last night

I know clicking this conversation might hurt me a lot, but I want to know everything

I spend 2 minutes, reading their convos, it contains cheesy lines from our boss, Kim Jongin, but the lines that I hate the most is

"Yes of course" Jennie agreed of Jongin courting her

I couldn't blame Jennie,

Who else would say no if a president of a company ask a permission to court you

He have looks, money, cars and a kind personality, an ideal man

A perfect person for Jennie, unlike me

I'm not even close to the level of Jongin, I'm just a pro computer expert with a low social skill

I eat my lunch in silent, I could hear their laughter from here, Jennie for sure was having the time of her life

I continue to work, drowning myself for hours, I didn't notice the time, people were slowly leaving the department

I watch them leave, I wait for a couple of minutes just so I can clean her desk

She leave already, Jongin ask her for a ride, the moment they close the door everyone was gossiping around, even her two best friends

She's gonna be the talk of the department, a whole company rather

Jongin or Kai is basically known as the youngest president of the company, everyone knew him

Even his love life, and for everyone to know, he already got a child

And a wife,

And if they knew Jennie has a relationship with him, She's marking as a mistress, and Kai as a cheater

And I didn't lie