I Can't Quit You (JenLisa)

33.) Lisa's Distraction

Title: I Love You

Artist: Little Mix

LISA'S POV

June

It's been almost 5 months since Jennie and I have been apart. After My Birthday Surprise, She hasn't tried to contact me anymore, not even any subtle post, Although..My family back in Thailand said that Jennie met up with them when they had their concert in Bangkok.

According to them, Jennie took care of their hotel and travel accommodations, she even gave them backstage passes, they said that Jennie took really good care of them but other than that, nothing.

My Family never mentioned anything about her and I's relationship, they think we're okay and in good terms, I guess she didn't bother telling them about our issue, which is a good move since nobody really needs to get involve.

She's been in Celebrity News Lately Since 2nd week of May, it's rumored that she's being courted by Jin of BTS. There are pictures of Jin attending BlackPink Concerts, him singing along whenever Jennie's part comes up, and also buying her expensive gifts and he's always seen with bouquet of flowers.

Weirdly enough, I haven't really seen any pictures of them together, but then again, Jennie is good at keeping her relationship Private.

I can't say that it doesn't really affect me because it does, Big Time. The first time I heard about it, I called out from work, I couldn't find it in me to function knowing that she's moving on from me, it hurts a lot, until now, I feel like I'm being stabbed right in my chest every time I see or hear news about them.

When she was dating Kai, they were already a high profile couple because Kai is an EXO member and his band is popular to many Asian Countries, and now, there's Jin from BTS which is even bigger than EXO

I can't compete with them.

Sah Jang Nim was right, her and I live in very different worlds, I can't believe I was so delusional thinking her and I could ever workout.

To be honest, even though I was the one who broke it off with Jennie, I feel bitterness towards her, It makes me angry knowing that she's moving on with someone else, I get insanely Jealous just thinking about her and Jin being in a relationship, I can't take it, it hurts so much.

Jennie frustrates the hell out of me, how dare her move on from me?!

This Jealousy that I'm feeling is out of control and I know I'm not in any position to feel this way, it's not her fault, there's no one to blame but me.

I already know that there's a possibility that this will happen but now that it's actually happening, I realized that being without her is much much harder than I thought.

I'm still very much in love with her and I don't think I'll ever get over Her.

I need to stop this once and for all, I made my choice, and this is the consequence. I have to deal with it like a real adult should.

If she's already dating him then that shouldn't be my business anymore.

If she's moving on then maybe I should too, it's been a while since I dated anyway, it wouldn't hurt to try again.

If she can do it then so can I.

On a more Positive Note, Next week will be the start of My Last Year as a College Student, I already earned enough money (and some) for me to graduate thanks to the big weekly bonuses that we've been getting from the new owner of the Café, I wish someday I'd get the chance to meet him/her I would thank them properly.