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Ashamed

I tried sucking in all the fat as I see Jenny with the perfect body. I managed to look like Jenny for a bit. "Is that the kind of girl Ondreaz wants?" I thought. I laid in bed thinking about everything. Tony came in and sat by me. "What's wrong princess?" He asked rubbing my head. "Are my breast supposed to be big and my waist is supposed to be small? Is my butt supposed to be big? Is that what Ondreaz likes..." I said stumbling on a few words. "Hey it's ok. You can't control love, believe me no one can." He said, "if you love him then you gotta give him time." He said. I sighed thanking him. I put on a shirt covering up my fat. Ondreaz walked in and smiled at me. "I couldn't fake smile I just stayed sad. "Hey it's ok. I love you for who you are." He said. My eyes lit up but realized he meant as a friend. I tried to stay strong as he said no feelings. I just had to... I was kissing him, he pulled away right away. He stormed out. "So many imposters..." I said. I felt my eyes burn I wanted to smack myself. I heard a ring at the door and ran to get it. Tony's and Ondreaz ran out for the day. I opened the door and Jenny stood there. "Someone has been crying lately." She laughing "bitch hush." I said angrily. "Someones got an attitude. "If I see you in the streets bitch you ass is done." I said slamming to the door. She rang it again. She punched me I fell to the floor. I blacked out. I woke up in my bed in someone's arm. I looked up and saw Tony wait no Ondreaz... I kissed his cheek. He didn't react. I tried to unlock the door. It wouldn't budge. "Ondreaz fucking help me!" I screamed. He came up and pushed me. "Ow!" I screamed. I hid under the bed. "Your nothing without me!" He screamed. "I had learn for myself." I said using my hands as a shield. I then woke up in Tony's arms nervously. "Where is Ondreaz?" I asked. Ondreaz walked through scaring the shit out of me. "Here." He said. "Please don't hurt me!" I said hiding under the blankets. He looked confused. "I'm not going to in ANY WAY." He screamed. I could feel my eyes burn then Tony get up after getting a text. Tony left the room leavening me alone. Ondreaz looked at me then yelled "I CANT BELIEVE YOU KISSED ME WHEN I SAID NO FEELINGS INVOLVED! YOU 18! IM 23! I CANT BELIEVE YOU THOUGHT WE'D WORK OUT AND MAYBE JENNY IS BETTER THEN YOU!" He screamed storming off. I started crying into my pillow thinking of how awful I was. I cried myself to sleep and woke up the next morning. I looked around and didn't even care they weren't there. I changed and brushed my hair got my backpack and left. I hugged my stuffed bear as I wanted it to feel like Ondreaz. I looked for their cars but no. I called an Uber and just cried the whole way to school. Once I got there Jenny was waiting for me. "Morning BITCH." She yelled. "Morning Jenny." I said in sorrow. "Awww did your little boy toy dumb you." She said laughing at me. I walked passed her and went to my locker. I opened it out my backpack inside my locker and got out my books. After school I got my backpack not feeling any better. I ran into some guy that I recognized. "Jake...." I said backing up. He bit his lip and I pushed him. I sat outside the school waiting for Ondreaz's car which wasn't coming obviously. "Happy early birthday Sarah!" Someone said. I realized tomorrow was my birthday. "Thank you Sami." I said trying to keep myself from crying. I ended up walking home hurting my legs. When I got home I saw Ondreaz's car in the garage