Forgotten Memories

Chapter 6- Reason why

"You will not leave me again right?"

"I won't, because leaving you is the biggest mistake I've done....."

I found myself sitting in a swing with someone. I can't remember who is he, Everytime I look at his face its all blur.

I wanted to wake up, I know this is just one of my nightmares but somehow it doesn't feel like one.

"Nessa...Nessa~" That voice I heard that voice again.

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"Vanessa..Vanessa!" I heard someone yelling my name.

As I opened my eyes I saw 12 pair of eyes looking at me .. again.

"O-oppa?" Instead of being worried about what happened I laughed because of what I've seen.

"Why are you laughing Vanessa? I almost died worrying because of you." He said

"HAHAHAHA but, you should have seen your face. its..--- really..-- something!" I said while trying to stop laughing. Just imagine to wake up on your sleep then you'll see your oh-so-handsome-brother crying like a little child who had been bullied.

"Van." Oppa said with his serious tone.

"Okay. Oppa I'll stop. What now?" I asked.

"You passed-out again." he sighed.

"I don't know what's gotten into me, this past few weeks something keeps on bothering me, probably that stressed me and that's the reason why I passed out, again.." I said.

"What bothers you?" Suho asked.

"Is it our stay here?" Xiumin added.

"Don't you want us here?" Baekhyun said

"N-no, not that.. its just. I don't know .. ugh. my head is aching, I guess I should sleep. Im really tired." I said.

"We'll talk tomorrow Van.. " Oppa said.

"Okay.. okay. Im fine" I added.

they went out on my room until he's the only one left. Still staring at me..

"I was worried.. really worried" I can see the sincerity within his eyes that sent hundreds of bolts on my body, then my heart started to throb.

Why? Why does he affect me like this?

"Who are you.. why are you making me feel like this?" I asked him.

"You don't really remember me?" He said with disappointment.

"Why should I remember you?" I said.

"Nevermind.." he said as he went out of my room.

I put my hand on my chest as I tried to ease my pounding heart .

I just let out a deep sigh as I lay down on my bed.

What is happening to me?

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Kris' POV

Its been 5 years since that accident happened. but everything is still clear to me..

Flashback~

We were nervously driving along jeju island as were going after Vanessa whose driving so fast ahead of us.

We were trying to call her but she doesn't answer our calls.

"Van, baby, stop now please"

Mom pleaded, we're riding a 4x4 vehicle while chasing Vanessa who's driving my Ferrari.

"Van, he loves you so much, I'm sure he has a reason for that."

Mom said again, but Vanessa just keeps on accelerating.

"Van, van!" I yelled but she doesn't listen. She just keeps on wiping her tears while driving.

Then it happened.

Vanessa's car stopped but then our vehicle's brake broke, We crashed into Vanessa's car. The only thing I remembered were screams.

CRAAAAAASHHHHHH..

SREEEECHHHH...

BOOOOOOGSH!

Everything turned black, I tried to open my eyes,then I saw blood, lot's of blood.

"Mom,Dad-- Van--"

Those were the only words that came out my mouth.

When I woke up, Were in a hospital, Vanessa's comatosed, Doctors told me that our parents didn't make it. 

It was a total wreck, My parents had to be buried in an instant because they are both crushed like tin cans in the car.

I tried to compose myself, but then tears started to fell on my eyes. I still can't digest everything that happened.

Months passed but were still on the hospital, Vanessa's still on a coma. I can't get out to go home or visit my parents on the Cemetery, for I'm afraid that something might happen to my sister , the fact that she has been unconscious for months scares me, I can't loose her, she is the only one I have.

But, there's someone who didn't let a day pass without visiting Vanessa. He almost lived on the hospital during that time. Although I'm glad he never failed to watch over my sister,  though I can't stop thinking that he is one of the reason why Vanessa is like this.

I hated him, but I understand his reason. He had to do that although it's against his will. So I have no choice that to forgive him, it already happened, I can't do anything about it.

In one day, the world turned its back on me and Vanessa.

After 6 months, Vanessa finally woke up, but then she had forgotten the things that happened before the accident, Even Chanyeol..

Since I don't want anything to happen again, I decided to hide everything to her and start a new life.

I only told her about what happened to our parents.. It's better for her not to know, I can't afford to see her in that situation again.

So I lied to her about Chanyeol and everything, its the only choice I had.

Though time will come and she'll know about all of this. But for now, its better to let her believe in my lies

End of flashback~

Now she's living with all of my lies, everything that she knew were just made up. Great eh? Now I'm feeling more guilty..

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