✓ | 𝐒𝐔𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄. ( ʷʰʸ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʷᵉ )

two

thursday, june 27th 2020

dear diary, 

i think i'm gay... 

i just don't know how to confess to erica. she is such a great girlfriend and i really don't want to lose her. 

i really just don't know what to do with my life anymore. all i have in life is fame, but i don't even want it!

 i never even wanted to be in this stupid band. it was all randy. he forced me to do this. i have this urge to hurt him in some way, but i know i can't do that. i would be okay in prison, though. all i would have to do is just sit there until i either starve or bore myself to death.

 anyways, let's talk about my dumbass bandmates. sit tight. there's a whole lotta me ranting about jack, even though you're used to it.

i hate jack so fucking much! words can't describe how much i want to stab him with jonah's weird asian sword collection. he's the worst! yesterday, he punched me in the face and got away with it! the fucking bruise is so big that it hurts when i breathe. if only murder was legal, diary. if only..

now, onto zach. he's like jack's little minion! he does whatever he tells him to do, even if it contains something totally illegal! i really just want to strangle him until his face turns purple and he chokes to death. maybe i should kill him in his sleep! 

ugh, jonah. he's literally a simp for jack! he does whatever he says and always obeys him. he's just a little pussy. i think he's like this because he's too scared to stand up to jack. if he really tried and gave himself a really long pep talk, i think he would do it. i've also never seen him cry before.. i don't know why i brought that up but it needed to be said. 

now, little ol' corbyn. he's cool. he respects my opinions, he helps me through my panic attacks, and he actually is really helpful. i really don't think i have anything bad to say about him. oh, and he hates jack as well! for once, someone actually gets me! 

oh, i hear footsteps. it's probably jack again. talk to you later. 

- daniel.