The Youtuber (Completed)

Eight

He makes me feel this way. I've been molested for years, and I could say nothing to anyone. I just kept my mouth shut and let him do whatever he pleases to me. Yes, he loves me. But his love makes me feel abandoned in disgrace. He's the one who supposed to be a shelter for me, someone who should protect me, makes me feel safe, but he did otherwise.  I felt that I live in hell. It happened since I turn 11.

And the woman I call Mom was there and do nothing to protect me, her only child. She just drowned herself in the liquor and get drunk and high. Alone. When he did the unfair to me, she just watched and I don't know where her sense is.

Tears, sweat, blood... I'm the only one who has to shed it all. I crawled back to my room, locked myself, and cried and no one cares. I have to get rid of them, I said.

In one of the nights, when he came back to me to do his routine, I stabbed him on his chest repeatedly. I had hidden the knives I stole from the kitchen in the afternoon when they both got high. he didn't die. He snatched the knife, instead, and hurt me on my back. I screamed, but no one would come to help. He attacked me, but I got another knife under my pillow. And I stabbed him again until he fell on the floor in the pool of blood.

I saw him dying on the floor. I kneeled down beside him, I stabbed the knife on him again, until I couldn't count how many times I had done it. And that time she came into the room. She screamed. She ran to me and snatched the knife from me, slashed it on my chest, but I fought her. I twisted her hand, turned the knife all the way around back to her, and she killed herself.  Yeah.... I assumed that so.

I went to the living room. I switched the TV on. I want to watch the cartoon. My favorite cartoon that I have been watched since I was still in primary 3. I didn't make it up to the couch.  I was too exhausted. I fell and asleep. The next, I only remembered I awoke in the hospital with badges all over my body. And they told me:

"My dear boy, I'm sorry... We couldn't save your parents. They've killed each other. Your Mom is a hero to protect you from your predator Dad....!"

And they left. They left me to smirk in victory. I enjoyed the victorious moment of mine. Now I have found the way how to protect myself. It's an easy way to escape the humiliation and molestation.

I'm fourteen, and I'm a millionaire of my useless parents' inheritance and life insurance whom I killed with my own hands.

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I'm waiting for Zhan Ge in front of the gate of the office building. I sit on my bike without removing my helmet. I know he'll definitely recognize me even though with my helmet on. And I was right.

He is coming out of the main entrance of the building. There is a girl with her. To be honest, she's pretty. Very pretty. But, hell... She's not my type. I'm not into women. I blame it on my Dad. Well,  I don't think it's my nature.  I always thought it caused by my upbringing, how my Dad treated me when he was still alive.

And that woman... Urgh? She gets me into my nerve when she pats Zhan Ge's head. Why does she need to do that, anyway? Zhan Ge has to bend, so she can pats his head. They giggle.

A few seconds later, that woman bid goodbye to Zhan Ge to my relief. She jumps on a white wagon. I can see kisses the guy who driving the wagon. Good... She has a boyfriend already. Otherwise, she has to face what she deserves for  being close to Zhan Ge. My Zhan Ge.