The Youtuber (Completed)

Fifteen

~~ Xiao Zhan ~~

I shudder when he shows me the web. Everything is there. The Police top secret's files, Government's documents. I wonder how he did it? Does he know the passcode to break into these National's top-secret documents? Well, yes, of course, he does. That's why he succeeds to open those files and shows them all to me. But why does he want to show them all to me? To show off? Or my content matters to him and he wants to help me since I still have no materials for my channel's content. But this is not the way I wanted. If I insist to do it to get popular and attract more viewers, I will end up being caught by the government.

But I don't think he pays attention to those contents on the deep web. As he told me, he only wants to find the more challenging games which mostly are very disturbing to the extreme. I don't know why he wants that kind of game, because to me I hardly win the games I've downloaded and played on the surface web, too.

I cry, because I saw something more horrific scene. I want to deny it, but it's true. My eyes didn't fill me. I have my specs on. It was a video. An unplayed video. But I saw the image of it.

I break the hug. I still lower my head. I don't dare to look at him. I'm terrified. I'm afraid.

"Zhan Ge...?" he voiced out, tilting my chin so I will look at him.

I look at him with wet eyes.

"I'm sorry..." he whispers.

I shake my head and force a smile. He pecks my lips, then dries my tears up. He leads me out of his room and brings me to the couch.

"Is my hobby scares you?" He asks.

"A little," I reply with a small voice.

He smiles. He taps the top of my head, makes me have to shorten my neck.

"You are so cute," he complimenting. Then he continues, " If it scares you, then I won't do it again. I chose the deep web because I feel lonely. And the challenging things make me forget my loneliness. But now I have you here already, I don't think I'll still need it...!"

Actually, I want to pull away from him. Buy I don't do it. I snuggling into his chest, instead. He stroking my head gently.

"Did you see the informations and the videos in there?"  Ask him carefully.

"No. I don't need them. I only search for the games there... !" He replies

"Oh," I mumble.

"Why? Is there anything bugging you?" He ask me back.

I don't answer him.

"Zhan Ge?" he calls me when I keep quiet.

"Mn?" I hum.

"What happened? " He asks again.

"Have you done any... I mean. Like... Hurting somebody else?" I don't know how to ask him. It seems so difficult to ask a simple question but it's not about a simple thing.

Silence.

He doesn't answer me promptly like he used to do. The stroke on my head also lessen the pace. I lift my face to see him who zoning out.

"Yibo?" I call him out of his name to bring him back to the sense.

He looks at me. Then he shakes his head. I sigh. I raise myself from him, but he pulls me back into a hug.

"Don't leave me..." He whispers in my ear. His voice trembling.

"Why?" I ask him, heartlessly.

"I need you in my life...." He replies.