She's Not Afraid

Healing

It's been around 1 month since the funeral. Lately Dads been really angry too, throwing things across the room, punching holes in the walls, yelling at Louis' and I really quickly. It's really annoying. His barely in the house lately, he just leaves us at home alone, gets home at 10:30pm then goes of his head at nothing. I miss how he used to be, I miss how our family was, I miss mum! Its just so different now.

I have barely moved from my bed, neither has Lou. Since his rooms really big he moved my bed in there so we have been really close lately. Even though his been having Eleanor over a lot so she could comfort him, I don't mind, Eleanor is like my sister. His also been having one of his band mates Harry over a lot. We have a little fling.

Sometimes Harry sleeps in my bed and we cuddle, which Lou doesn't know about because Harry moves onto the floor before he wakes up. I know it's bad we go behind his back but we don't want to make him more upset.

I text Harry a lot, sometimes call. Louis always asks me who I'm talking to I just say one of my friends Cher or Harriet. He falls for it ever time, when he asks sometimes I get scared that he will find out and hate me, or hate Harry.

One day Harry came over and he was chasing me around Lou's bedroom and I was giggling, he through me onto the bed a layed on top of me, he was looking right into my eyes with his amazing green ones, he was looking right through my soul, melting my heart. As he held me down I started to feel butterflies in my stomach. He was bending his neck down getting closer, closer and closer with his juicy lips. This would be my first kiss in awhile, we closed our eyes and puckered up...

"You two seem to be enjoying yourslef!" Said Louis running and jumping onto his bed. My reflexes kicked in and I pushed Harry's perfect body of mine and sat up against the bed head.

"It isn't like that BooBear!" I said, our whole family called him BooBear, he didn't particularly like it.

"Babe! Do you think I didn't see your fling?" He asked as sassy as I've ever heard him. Harry laughed and kissed my forehead.

"I'll speak to you later babe." He whispered with his sweet voice.

"See ya Lou!" He yelled.

"Bye Hazz!" He replied back.

I was waiting for Louis to start yelling at me, giving me a lecture about how he doesn't want me to get hurt or say something at least. He said nothing, we both sat there on our phones, giving awkward eye contact.

Nothing happened for at least another 5 minutes. He walked out of the room and then without any noise he slapped my forehead!

He jumped onto my bed like a teenage girl and kicked his legs back and forth.

"So Harry Styles, huh?" He said in a girls voice.

"Don't worry it's nothing Lou, we have decided to just be friends." Lou sighed, and face planted on the bed.

"We'll this is dumb! I wanted to tease you guys! This sucks, anyways I've got to go to rehearsals with the boys, love you!" Louis rushed of kissing my check and running out the front door.

I couldn't stand being home with dad so I called Cher and Harriet. We meet at Cher's house and stayed their the night. We watched scary movies, comedies and love stories. We pigged out on sour warms, chips, Nutella and then after all our movies we lit up the bonfire and roasted some marshmallows. We sat their laughing at memories, sat their crying at memories and we had the night of our lives.

Around 5 the next morning I got a text from Lou

~Hey Nikkita, need to go out for lunch tomorrow! Ill meet you at Starbucks at 1:00pm! love you!~

GREAT!

Screaming fans.

I wonder what he wants to tell me