Why?

What is this feeling?

Kenma's pov.

I was slowly walking my way to school playing on my ds. I'd usually go faster but Kuroo doesn't walk with me anymore. He's usually already at school with his girlfriend. Why does my heart feel so heavy? Why did I get so angry calling her Kuroo's girlfriend? It doesn't matter I should just put my game down for now and focused on not being hit by a car.

"But what if you do get hit? Would anyone even realize? Would anyone care?" A voice in my head said. Of course someone would care my teammates, my family, Kuroo.. "Oh really? Your teammates use you for your brain. Your parents leave you alone, disappearing for months on end. And as for Kuroo why would he care? He has a loving girlfriend he doesn't need you."

  I quietly let this voice take my reasoning away. I mean it is right. Nobody needs me.. I looked up at the school sadly and turn around starting to walk back home, suddenly not feeling like going anymore.

Kuroo's p.o.v

I was with my "girlfriend" of the week. I don't even know why I keep doing this. I should just tell Kenma everything but, I can't take that risk. The risk of wasting years of friendship for some love. As much as I would love dating him, holding his hands as we walk to school, kissing him good morning, cuddling while he plays video games, I can't lose what I already have with him.

My girlfriend, Makura, complains about how her father wont by her a new phone and how the one she has is outdated. Kenma would never do something like this. He loves his phone, even if it is old, because it has all of his games on it. I looked up and see him walking away I get up quickly to chase after him but Makura stops me.

"Where you going?" She asks sounding pissed that I interrupted her. She's so annoying and nothing like Kenma. He wouldn't ever talk about himself. He'd talk about the new game he's into and how hard the boss is, how quickly he got through it, how he could replay it because he enjoyed it so much. I just sighed and sad back down replying with "No where sweetie" and putting on a fake smile for her. Because i can't mess this up.

Because I love him way too much.

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Authors note:

Hey hey hey everyone! This is my new book called Why? I hope you enjoyed the first chapter because I enjoyed writing it. I'll you guys later!