The Flowers Of Sadness

Chapter 1

Middle school.
Stop crying. Stop.

This is stupid. Stuff like this should be easy, but it sucks. Everything just sucks.

I gazed up at the mirror in front of me and noticed how red my eyes are. Fluffy. I was in the bathroom.

Our match just ended agasint another school.

God, I feel so empty. My chest hurts.

I kept taking deep breaths, but it still wasn't going away. This feeling of a void inside my chest.

I can't believe I lost.
It was my first match.
It's not fair.

The tap was running, I washed my face repeatedly, almost drowned myself. Could hardly breath anymore.

I turned off the tap.
Silence. My heart was beating too loud.

"Hinata" I look to my right. That's scared me. I thought I was going deaf from the loudness of my heart for a moment.

I was surprised to see my friend Izumi. He was stood by the door, he seemed concerned.

"I'm coming now" I muttered as I leaned down and grabbed my bag from the floor.

I took a moment to turn around and face him again. It's obvious I've been crying, but I done so anyway.

A look of sympathy struck his face.

"W-what?" I asked as I felt my eyes getting teary again. He teared up himself and walked to me, slowly.

I felt like I was holding my breath. Once he got close enough, he put a hand on my shoudler.

He didn't speak for a moment, it was like he was waiting for something.

"...you did good" he told me. Nothing. I don't feel anything. I could've done better. I bit my lip and looked at the ground.

"Not good enough" I whispered. I know he heard me. He rubbed his hand on my shoudler and sighed.

"...Hinata...." He paused. Don't say anything else. I already feel like a failure. "...just give it time, you'll be amazing one day..." He tired giving me confidence.

I scoffed.

As if.

I could never. Especially not by a guy like him, Tobio Kageyama.
He was too good.

I could never beat him. I've never seen a setter like him. He was so quick and I might have gotten one shot on him, but it wasn't good enough.

"...let's go" he told me as he led me out the bathroom with my head held low in disappointment.

I noticed that as we left the bathroom a shadow gloomed over me.

I felt Izumi's grip on my arm tighten. I looked up slowly and gulped. My body shivered.

Tobio Kageyama.

He's tall.
Strong.

Everything I'm not.

He had no expression on his face. Emotionless.

Izumi tucked my arm. Implying that we should just walk away.

I wanted to say something. Anything. His face didn't seem to change expression.

My words were being eaten up. My mouth would open, but no words.

"You're Hinata" he spoke. No emotion. Dull words. Black and white.

I nodded and gazed at the ground eyes half shut. Don't cry.

Don't cry.

"You're fast" my heart jumped. What the hell....

"..but...Not fast enough" my heart sank.

Don't cry. Dony cry.

Can't he see I'm already depressed?

The shadow left and my body felt numb. That prick.

I fell to my knees and Izumi caught me. I was breathing heavy and my heart rate was too high. Everything was too messy. Too dizzy.

I couldn't see anything but colors.

"Hinata"

Fuck. I can't believe that a prick like him is even alive.

"Hinata!" I jumped as I heard Izumi calling out my name.

We stayed in silence for a moment, until my breathing calmed down. He helped me back up.

We didn't say anything to eachother. We were silence the whole time.

All I could hear was my breathing.

Fuck.
What an arragont prick.

A/N
First haikyuu fanfiction.
First chapter is a little short, but that's mainly just to built up Hinata's character.
Also, they're in middle school so they're age is like 13/14. I think.

Anyway, this is gonna be emotional af.

This story is insirpied by this short anime called ♡this boy suffers from crystallization♡.

It's really cute and only like 30 minutes long, but it's adorable.