the only God I have ever needed to know called envy deadly
Yet I refused to hear.
I envied you.
I might still do.
I envy how easily you make friends
And your stupid perfect smile
I hate how everyone is always drawn to you while I can barely muster a "hi"
I envy your open heart
And your unending selfless acts
I envy the softness of your curves
And the way you make jaws drop.
I hate how they always compare us
And how I am never enough.
I hate that you're the perfect daughter
And I, the perfect mess.
I hate how she would love you
And treat me like I'm second-class
I hate how that I tried to be better
And was still a failure
I hate how she made me hate you
I hate the anger I felt.
But I love that you're my sister
And how you always have my back
I love how you care for me
And the way you'd hold my hand
I love the way you are
And the bond we'll always share
I love how far we've come
And the friendship we have found
I love your perfect smile
And how it totally contrasts mine
