DECEPTION

I Smile

Cross made it downstairs to everyone else.

Error: Hey there Cross.

Cross: Hi.

Error: You alright especially with what happened?

Cross: *fake smiles* Yeah it's like it never happened.

Error: *smiles back* I'm happy it didn't affect you much.

Cross: Yeah....

Dust and Killer also asked him if he was alright he gave them each the same response. Soon he was approached by Hate.

Hate: Hey Cross.

Cross: Hello Hate.

Hate: I was thinking since I'm gonna be staying here being Night's boyfriend and all.

Ouch that stung.

Hate: I was thinking about getting to know some of you guys.

Cross: Why are you telling me this?

Hate: Cause I'm starting with you.

Cross: oh...

Hate: So Cross... Hmmmm want to play 21 questions?

Cross: That's random.

Hate: Well I think it's the best way to get to know someone. I can't really talk to you like I know you because I don't *shrugs*

Cross: Hasn't stopped you before.

Hate: True, but anyway want to?

Cross: Sure later right now I want to eat.

Hate: And listen to sad music?

Cross: What?

Hate: I mean no one noticed, I don't know how? But you have headphones on and I can hear them. They're playing a song I think "I Smile"? Yeah "I Smile" by Day6

Cross: Yeah it is

Hate: Damn right on! Anyway what's got you down in the dumps to be listening to that song?

Cross: Nothing.

Hate: Yeah sure it's nothing.

Cross: Shut up.

At that point Cross just walked away. Hate just chuckled and walked the other way.

Hate: *walking away* cute.....

With Cross deep in thought eating. He had so many thoughts. But right now he was kind of into his music. He hummed the last verses of the song in English. "Today I smile. Even though it hurts I smile. Till the last moment with you. As if nothing happened. As if I'm doing fine. I have to.... I Smile..... I Smile... This could only be sometimes. That I get to see you. I have to... I Smile...." The song ended and Cross was surprised.

Cross: Wow I forgot it was going to end. Oh well.

Killer: Hey Cross.

Cross: Hey.

Killer: What are you eating?

Cross: Tacos.

Killer: Oh want to play video games with us?

Cross: I'm good.

Killer: Alright.

Killer walked away leaving Cross to fall into his thoughts. "I'm pathetic" "How could you think he loved you" "He never showed it" "All he did was beat you" "Stop thinking like this" "He deserves pain" "Stop" "He just used you countless times with no regret" "I know" "He purposely ignored you're feelings" "No, he didn't know it-" "SILENCE STOP TRYING TO COVER FOR HIM! STOP DEFENDING HIM! LOOK AT THE BRUISES ON YOUR BODY! THE CUTS ON YOUR WRIST! THE MENTAL STATE YOUR IN! THE PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL, AND MENTAL ABUSE THAT'S TAKEN IT'S TOLL! HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU! SO STOP DEFENDING HIM AND ACCEPT REALITY! HE HURT YOU! HE CALLS YOU THINGS LIKE PATHETIC, USELESS, PEICE OF SHIT, NOTHING, WORTHLESS, A TOOL!!! YOU HEAR THAT JUST A FUCKING TOOL!!!!! THAT PROVES HE DOESN'T CARE!" "Stop" "YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO ACCEPT THE TRUTH" "STOP" "WHY SHOULD I?" "JUST STOP I KNOW, HE DOESN'T CARE BUT I CAN'T HELP BUT CARE. THAT'S WHY I RESIST THE URGE TO LEAVE. THE URGE TO DO THINGS MY WAY. Please... Stop...." ".......No" "then you're forcing me to make you" "Do it but you know I'll always be here no matter how many times you send me away. And each time I come back the urge will be greater and greater. So good luck fighting a losing war........."