Rape! It may seem like a simple four letter word, but it dives deeper than that. Have you ever had the feeling where you can't trust anyone but your family, and then you're betrayed by that same family.
I feel it almost all the time, I lost my parents when I was six years old and my older brother got custody of me, he was twelve years older.
I knew my brother wasn't the brightest piece of block on the street, it wasn't obvious when I was younger but as I grew older I realised the brother I had always looked up to was fake and a fraud.
My brother never got into college because of his poor grades, he just lived off his trust fund, he blamed me for that, he told me I ruined everything not that it was my problem but sure enough he made it mine.
He got jealous of my good grades and stopped providing the main amenities like he was supposed to so I had to get a Job.
I provided for myself but still I loved my brother, I saved enough to leave the house but I didn't because he was family.Key word;was.
He was a drug addict, an alcoholic and an extremely violent person who used his fists to emphasize his words. He was everything that wasn't good and much worse. He was also a Rapist and I was his victim.
I was happy with my life, few friends but I was still doing okay, I was doing good at my work place.
But my brother ruined it for me. Like I mentioned earlier my brother was a drug addict and an alcoholic.
One night with extreme pounding on the front door I jolted awake. I went out of my room knowing it was my brother.
The first thing malodorous stench of stale alcohol.
My brother staggered into the living room and grabbed me. He pushed me to ground, tore off my clothes and forced himself on me. I cried all through that night unable to sleep, my own brother who was supposed to protect me . He was family but He raped me.
The days after that I was like a living corpse, my best friends were worried they prodded and tried to get to me but I was numb...
Thankfully they didn't leave me alone, one of them persuaded me to talk to her mom who was a therapist.
I spilled my mind to her, I felt relieved like a huge load was lifted off my chest. It was an amazing feeling to have someone to talk to and not be judged.
I decided my brother needed to pay for this because it won't be fair to his next victim...
I didn't want anyone to through the same pain and betrayal I went through.
I went to the police and filed a complaint pictures were taken, probing questions were asked, I had to take tests,it was uncomfortable, I felt self conscious,I felt like they were judging me but deep down I knew it was the right thing to do, to bring justice to myself and save some else from falling a victim.
When I visited my brother after his arrest I asked him why he hated me, he told me I should never have been born, he told me he tried to kill me even before I was born by pushing my mom down the stairs but somehow I survived and ended up taking all the attention.
I asked him why he raped me; he said it was for fun. My own brother raped me for fun. He stressed that it was my fault, told me I deserved it. But I know it wasn't, I know I didn't deserve, I wasn't at fault I did nothing wrong.
I finally spoke up because I have severed all ties with him, he wasn't my brother, no! he was a physciotic monster.
I spoke up and I got my justice! I found my voice!
I say this to whoever Suffered rape it's not your fault you don't deserve, you need to find your voice don't let anyone bring you down!.
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The End.
it’s something shocking and extraordinary whenever we see it or read it on the news.We stay quiet, hence weo we accept it…Until rape, and the factors – sexism, inequality, tradition that make it possible, are a part of every conversation with the upcoming generation, it won't stop
Does it feel good or comfortable to talk about it? No. But must we talk about it anyway Yes!
Rape is when a person violates another person in the most despicable, degrading way imaginable and among the myriad of terrible things humans can do to one another, rape is among the worst.
Rape is unfair to both genders
#say no to rape
