A Broken Rose

Chapter 1

“Love fades, mine has.”

Pain was all I could feel when I heard those words.  Did he really just say that?  Did those horrible, hurtful words just come out of his beautiful mouth?  How could his love fade so easily?  Before our lives changed, after the cabin, we had figured everything out.  We were going to make this work and be happy together.  How can a love as deep and pure just fade away?  Then it hit me.  He obviously never felt the same way about me, or he realized I wasn’t good enough for him because I had become a bloodwhore.  With a shattered heart I looked Dimitri in the eyes “I get it.  I was never good enough for you anyway.  You don’t have worry about me pestering you again.  Goodbye Dimitri.  I hope you have a good life.”  With that I ran out of the church because there was no way I would let Dimitri see me cry.

I ran straight to my best friend’s room.  Lissa was like a sister to me and I knew she would understand what I needed to do next.  She would be hurt but she would understand.

Lissa took one look at my face and knew something horrible happened.  “Oh my God Rose what happened?”

“I have to leave.  I cannot stay here and guard you and you cannot come with me because Dimitri needs you.”  I please with her through my eyes.  I really need her to understand and not hate me.

“What do you mean you have to leave?  Rose just tell me what happened.”

I tearfully told Lissa about our conversation in the church.  She got very angry with me because she told me to leave him alone.  She told me he just needed a little time to emotionally heal.  She yelled at me telling me that I probably set him back and that now it would take even longer for him to heal.  I couldn’t believe this!  Not only had the love of my life just shattered every part of me but now my best friend was telling me that it was my entire fault.  I had to get out of here.  I stood up and ran out the door.  Lissa was so mad at me she didn’t even try to stop me.

I got to my apartment and didn’t know what to do.  I wanted to leave court but didn’t know where I would go.  I didn’t know what I was going to do.  As I started to panic my eyes started watering again.  Just then Adrian walked through my door.  The smile on his face dropped the instant he saw me.

“What happened?” Adrian asked as he walked over to me and just held me.

“I should have listened to her.  I should have never gone to him and try to make him see that he shouldn’t feel so guilty.  I mean Adrian it wasn’t even his fault.  I don’t hold it against him.  I never have.  He doesn’t see that all he sees is what he did to me.  I made it worse and now…now he h h hates me.”  I barely got that last part out in a whisper before I completely fell apart in Arians arms. 

I do not know how long I was crying but a thought finally entered my mind.  I jumped out of Adrian’s arms and immediately started apologizing to him.  “Adrian I am so sorry.”

He looked at me like I had gone crazy.  “Why on earth are you apologizing to me?”

“I just had a complete breakdown over Dimitri and that is not fair to you.  We are still dating.  I should not have had this reaction.  Please please say you will forgive me.  I know that we cannot be together.  It is not fair to you.  I am broken, I feel like a shell of a person.  You should not have to deal with this; you shouldn’t have to try to put me back together."

“Ohhh my sweet Rose, You have no idea what you do to me.  I knew you still loved him.  I knew the second you gave me a chance that you still loved him and that it would take a long time for you to truly get over him.  Then when you and Lissa found a way to bring him back I knew it was only a matter of time before you left me and went to him.  I have been selfish hoping a praying that you would stay with me but I knew this whole time that it wasn’t going to happen.”

I just stared at Adrian.  I couldn’t believe that I hadn’t fooled him.  I tried so hard to give him a chance.  I know most people just see him as some crazy playboy but I knew better.  He really was an amazing man and I did not deserve him or his friendship.  I tried to use him to get over Dimitri.  I never really gave him a chance like I said I would.  “Adrian I do not deserve you.  You are amazing, kind, gentle and wonderful.  You deserve someone who will give you their whole heart.  You should not have to fight for a place in someone’s heart.  Oh Adrian I cannot do this to you anymore.  We cannot be together any…”

My words were interrupted by Adrian’s kiss.  “What was that for?”  I asked him

“You are not allowed to get your heart ripped apart by that cradle robber then push away the other person who loves you.  I knew I would have to share your heart with him.  I still chose to be with you.   You have no idea how truly amazing you are Rose.  I would do anything for you just to see you smile, to see you happy.  Tell me what you want and I will do it for you.  I love you so much Rose.”

I looked into Adrian’s eyes and I knew he was telling me the truth.  I reached out and hugged him and then I said something I never thought I would say to Adrian. “Let’s run away together.”

This is my first time ever writing a story.   I have been reading wonderful fanfic stories and I just got it in my head to try to write one myself.  I want everyone to know this is not a Rose and Dimitri story.  Don’t get me wrong I love Rose and Dimitri but I wanted to write something different and there are not a lot of Rose/Adrian stories.  Please be honest with me on what you think of this story.  I look forward to your reviews.