MISS ME, SHANK?

Part 2

Thomas/stiles pov
Present time

"Please Tommy please"
I shot up screaming, I was breathless trying to find the letter that newt gave me before he died, it was wrapped around on my neck. Before I knew it my dad was in there holding me telling me it was ok and that it wasn't my fault. We sat there for ten minutes while I calmed down. Then I told him he should leave and get some shut eye because of work tomorrow. When he left I laid there wide awake scared that I was going to see him again, scared to see him begging me to kill him again, scared to see me shoot him again.

Most of my nightmares are Newt but about once a week I get something else either it's chuck, Teresa, alby, Winston, ben or anyone else who died, sometimes it about the cranks or what happened in the trial. Sometimes I lay awake wondering if I should tell the pack about what happened or if I should at least tell them that the oni didn't kill Allison. She died by saving my life, but not as Allison, but as Teresa

As these thoughts were flooding my heading I heard a very loud beeping noise that I hear every morning but yet some how forget that was going to go off. I turn off my alarm clock by throwing it against the wall. Then I hear a buzz from my phone, it's a text from Scott.

Sorry can't ride or walk with you to school today going with Malia.

I silently celebrate because this means I can run to school with no interruptions. A lot of people would think running my house to the school is hard but I think it's refreshing 6.5 miles of complete free time with no one near me is just calming.

I grabbed my bag and ran out the door. It felt so good, most the time I have to pretend like I can barely run 3 feet so it's rare for me to actually run. I was about 4 miles to school until someone jumped in front of making me stop in my path all tense and may or may not of almost pulled my gun out until I realized who it was,

"Stiles what was that?"He said questionably
"What was what?" Even though already knew what he was talking about.
" hm, I don't know the fact that you just ran four miles and you aren't worn out at all, and what is that like 3 sweats were broken. Oh and when I jumped in front of you scarring you, you didn't fall to the ground, and don't think I didn't see that YOU ALMOST PULLED OUT A GUN!!!" He said sarcastically yet confused and angry "Yea I don't how to explain this one peter, just don't tell the pack." It was true I had no excuse "What make you think I wouldn't tell the pack that there sweet stiles is lying clearly about something." I rolled my eyes and sighed "Because I know last week it wasn't a hunter who killed that werewolf it was you. I was running in the woods and saw you. I gotta say peter were the only pack that will accept you and I don't think you would do so hot as omega.Now if you don't mind I got school to attend to" Then I ran off.

I was five minutes late when I got to class, when I sat down Scott turned "Dude where you." I looked up at him "Something came up." Then he had this face of confusion, I soon realized what he was looking at now it was my work that I just grabbed and I already had it all filled out even though the class hasn't learned it yet. Dammit that's two slip ups of being Thomas and not stiles today.

When we Walked out Scott kept asking me questions about how I already knew it and of course I already had excuses. Throughout the day I realized the whole pack was a little down I wondered why I was going to ask, but then lunch happened.

When I sat down everyone was crying. Then Issac sniffled and said "I can't believe it's been 4 years since Allison's death." Oh shit today was the 'anniversary of her death' well to them at least mine was 3 weeks ago and that was only a 1 year this made me feel  guilty that whole lunch was me debating if I should tell them.

As I walked out of the school and toward the bench Where the pack was. Peter was harshly glaring at me but also had a look of curiosity." Stiles can I talk to you for a sec" I groan and got up " what's up" " tell me something what other things are you lying about" he whispered, I have a lot against peter so i said fuck it. "A lot more than you think" he looked at the group and spoke loudly " hey me and stiles are going to take a walk." He said dragging me by the arm

I was kinda done with him, so punched him so he can stop dragging me "Ow what the hell stiles" I looked at him the way Thomas looks at people because oddly enough, I feel comfortable being Thomas around Peter. "Sorry, did I hurt you wolfie" he looked up at me and realized how I was looking at him.

"Stiles your gonna tell me what the hell is going on with you" I looked up at him in a way saying I'm done with your bullshit. So I went up to him and started yell in his face.

"Listen here peter, you think of me as weak and defenseless stiles, that's just dead weight. just like everyone else does. Well I was 4 years ago before I went missing. None of you even question what happened to me, you know why!? Because I acted like stiles stilinksi. Let me tell you something, My name is Thomas that's the name they gave me! I have gone against every code that this pack has. I've been through hell and back, lost so many people, lost the person I'm in love with. My brother isn't Scott, it's Minho, My family isn't the pack it's the gladers. And let me tell you peter I have killed way worse people then you so please try to act tough around me I swear I can snap you like a twig. I have scars covering my body have you seen me actually wear something that shows my legs and arms. And also lets be thankful for us cause they blew up wicked and I killed Ava Paige. Because wicked is not good and tell me if a guy named jenson aka 'Ratman' comes round he's mine to kill he took a lot from me."

My eyes were dark and peter actually looked like he pee himself " okay I am loving this stile" I corrected him "Thomas, you deserve it to know who I am now and have been for 4 years but call me stiles around the pack." Then we walked back.