Moon Child

Selfless~

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The air around me was cold, and the trees around me had finally lost all of their leaves. It was a cold morning, late in November, where the small state of Virginia was now transitioning into winter. The weather forecast called for a brutal winter, one where we would go through snow storm after snow storm. One where we would go through severe deep freezes. It was going to be the coldest winter that we'd have for a while.

And I welcomed that.

I welcomed the cold.

To me, the cold was peaceful. It wasn't like the heat where sometimes no matter what you did, you'd still be uncomfortably hot. In the cold you could layer up to stay warm.

So to me the cold was better.

I sat on the ground in front of the lake, staring out onto it. It had been a couple weeks since the incident with Morgan, and things were just now returning to normal. It didn't seem like it, but right after the attack, there was this awkwardness between Kailen and I. Now, it wasn't a bad awkwardness. It was just because I literally saw him die, and that completely changed our relationship.

We knew that we cared deeply for each other, but expressing that affection seemed to be tricky. Thankfully, we seemed to be getting past that.

It still made me feel confused and stuff, seeing as our relationship was moving so much slower than regular mates. Kailen and I had known each other for a month now, and while most mates would have already fucked and shit, we were only sleeping in the same bed and occasionally kissing.

I knew that was my fault though. I was afraid of being intimate. A few times Kailen had tried to initiate something, and silly old me was too scared to go farther. It was like everytime we got there, my body just shut down. And while Kailen was actually really nice about respecting my boundaries, I still felt bad.

I was deep in my thoughts when I heard a twig snap, and I turned around quickly. I wasn't surprised to see Kailen, but it did make me happy. And when he sat down beside me, my heart did that little flutter thing.

He looked out on the lake for a couple seconds, before he looked at me. He was quiet for a bit, but he was smiling. I could tell he was in a good mood, which put me in an even better mood.

"Good morning," He said. I smiled, remembering that it was still very early in the morning. In fact, the sun had just now started shining through the trees.

"Morning," I replied.

"You got up early," He said, "I missed you when I woke up."

"I wanted to see the sunrise."

He smiled again, and intertwined his fingers with mine. I couldn't help but blush—Thankfully it was still a little too dark to see my red cheeks, so Kailen wouldn't be able to tell.

He squeezed my hand briefly before looking down.

"I know you probably don't wanna talk about this," He paused, "But you really scared me."

Though he didn't have to say what I did that really scared him, I knew what he meant. I knew that he was talking about the incident with Morgan.

I looked down at my hand, which was enclosed in Kailen's. I couldn't bare to look at him, not now. Especially since this was the first time we were actually talking about what happened. I knew this was going to be a hard conversation.