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what and why he did it.

We were so happy other people would stare and say things about us but we didn't care. This only lasted 2 months those 2 months were the best we went on so many dates he was always with me and we practiced for nationals together. 2 months of work.. I notice bruises but I thought nothing of it cause that all stopped years ago turns out I was wrong. Oh so wrong.. Yamaguchi forgive me please.

It turns out Yamaguchis abuse never stopped it kept on going it never stopped his mom was just sneaky about it how in the hell did he keep smiling threw out all of this.

3 weeks before nationals

Me and Yamaguchi had a big fight 3 weeks before the nationals. He was.. I mean I wasn't being the greatest boyfriend i called him a no good reject, he knew I didn't mean it i thought he did. I love him he was no reject he was my boyfriend. But he didn't take it that way. 1 week after the fight I found out he had depression. I called and texted he didn't answer no matter what I did he wouldn't answer.

I found his anti-depressants in the toilet it looked like he threw them out days ago, that means.. oh no Yamaguchi I hope this isn't true.
I ran to his house as quick as i could. His mom wasn't home which was a good thing but the house was a mess everything was a mess. Pills all over the floor small razors with the littlest of blood on them. Enough for me to know it was Yamaguchis.

As I ran to the bathroom I saw both his wrist slit and his eyes slowly closed. Did I really just loose him. Did I loose my boyfriend. I called 911 and started screaming and crying I saw all the bruises in places you couldn't see if he was wearing shorts and a tee-shirts. I'm so sorry..

As the ambulance came I just knew there would be no way he would make it he was pale his freckles were barley visible. I wasnt aloud to go with him so I didn't and found a note on his bed that read

Dear Tsuki or Tsukishima Kei, I love you and I always will. Remember the good times I honestly could no longer handle this life and my mother was mostly the reason I know you will blame yourself but I don't want you to. You know it's not your fault i hope you know it isn't this was my full decision and if things were different I probably wouldn't have done this. But this is my fate I could no longer take my mom and when we got into an argument I just kinda lost it all I know I would never loose you but I felt like I did I just really couldn't take it. Find someone who will make you happy and promise me when you do you'll be happy and forget about me and play our favorite song. So I know that you've really found the one. Just know I will always love you. Goodbye.

I cried for hours I never stopped I ran home crying and kept crying as I locked my self into my room my mom and brother already knew what happened the team came over to comfort me but the were also crying Yamaguchi was loved by everyone they all ended staying the night in my room. I didn't care nor mind cause of what u was going threw they all stayed till we got the news in the morning.

We were all shaking and I was still crying I got the phone call and I.. I heard I'm sorry for your loss. We immediately rushed to the hospital we were all crying I cried the hardest cause he was so dead and pale I couldn't bare to see him like this. "Yamaguchi" I whispered "I still love you." That was the last thing I said to him I loved him he was and used to be mine but hes now gone he's really gone goodbye Tadashi Yamaguchi.