Upside Down -LSFY

Part 16

Zhuocheng's POV

Sitting in the empty room with nothing but my thoughts weighing me down, a single sentence kept ringing in my ears.

Zhan ge is gone. Zhan ge is gone. Zhan ge is gone.

What does that even mean?

Knowing Xiao Zhan, I know he's trying to piss me off. He's hiding somewhere, he has to be. He can't just leave like that. He still owes me 50 yuans  (ಥ╭╮ ಥ)

"Xiao Zhan...where are you?"

You have to be safe, you have to live, you have faced far worst things. You have to come back. You are a survivor, I know you will return! 

"...Come back." At least, tell me where you keep your money (ಥ╭╮ ಥ)

I pleaded to the empty room, with my empty heart. The feeling of knowing, I would never get my money back was heavier than I realized. I heard the sound of my phone.

I looked at the caller ID and it was my girlfriend, Meng Ziyi.

"Hello..."

"Cheng, where are you?! I have been looking for you everywhere."

Where am I? In a place where I can not understand whom am I crying for. Is it Zhan or my 50 yuans? Struggle is something you would never hope to understand(;'༎ຶД༎ຶ')

"Cheng why are you crying?!"

Lose 50 yuans then I'll tell why am I crying.

I really want to die.

"Cheng! Tell me where you are?!"

In a state of self-hatred and self-pity I could only manage to utter,

"...Xiao Zhan."

The beep was the que for me to go back to the bottomless misery. Somebody assure me, that he is alright! Somebody tell me that he's going to come back, waving the 50 yuan note with him. Somebody...anybody...please bring him back.

I drag myself to open the door, the bell had been ringing for who knows how long. In a daze, I found myself in an embrace.

Who?

Oh! It's my girlfriend. Meng Ziyi. What is she doing here?

My mind was in chaos that I could no longer tell from black to white.

"What happened to you huh?!"

I heard my girlfriend questioning me, but I have no energy to answer, no will to live.

What happened to me? I lost him! I lost the person who protected me, who accepted me, who became my first friend, my true friend. I lost him, I lost me. 

and a little paper of 50 yuan.

I found myself clutching to her and crying bitterly. This was the first time, I have actually held her even though we have been dating for a year now.

Meng Ziyi kept patting my back, soothing me with her touches until she stopped.

"Ahh...Cheng, who's that?"

I undid the embrace and followed her line of sight. Turning around I saw, equally perplexed figure.

Liu Huai Kuan.

"Ah, forgive me..." Liu Huai kuan said and turned away.

"Wait!" I don't know why I called him, as right after I was lost for words. He turned around and looked at me or rather us.