Breaking up with Brandon [FIN]

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

The passcode is 148504. You're always welcome. Yours, Light.

I smiled upon reading the note that came with the lunch na pinadeliver niya para sa akin. Pinasalamatan ko si kuyang Grab driver for handing the note and the food. Hindi ko tuloy mapigilan ngumiti. Alam niya kaya na isang sikat na band member yung nagpadeliver sa kanya? Anyway, the thing that made me happy is Brandon. He's been very sweet these days at siguro kung magtuluy-tuloy pa ito, wala na. Baka mahulog na ako ng tuluyan.

Of course, I always ask myself if this is real. Ayokong magising isang umaga na asadong asado na ako tapos panaginip lang pala lahat. But these things, these things make it easier for me to believe he's real and what we are doing right now is real.

But have you felt this before? Yung ayaw mong maging super saya kasi you have this idea na magiging malungkot ka naman after. Like it's a way for the world to balance everything. Hindi pwede yung masaya ka lang lagi or malungkot ka lang lagi. I'm exactly feeling this right now. I can't ignore the fact that I am extremely happy but I can't also shun the fear of being extremely sad in the next days.

One example was that, I was ecstatic when I met him in person. Who would have though that I, a fan, would meet someone big as Brandon? And take note, nameet ko pa si Blight04 which has the biggest name in gaming right now. And then the next day, Before Sunrise faced a major scandal. Ang bilis umikot ng roleta. Hindi man ako hinayaan na maenjoy yung moments ko with Brandon.

I'm worried about the band. I'm worried about Westley, Camellia and Brandon. I saw it in his eyes na the issue was starting to weigh down on him, starting to weigh down on the band. Araw-araw na lang ata may nirereport akong troll accounts na super mageffort manghate. How do they even sleep well at night knowing that they hurt someone? Isa lang talaga ang naiisip ko dyan, they're evil. They're probably tired and exhausted right now. Magiisang linggo na rin ang balita pero it doesn't show signs of dying down. I just hope na makahanap agad sila ng solusyon sa problemang ito. It would be better for the band and especially, Camellia na sobrang nahihirapan na dahil sa mga haters.

Umakyat na ako sa floor kung nasaan ang pantry. Doon ko na lang binalak kumain. My officemates were out because it's payday. Sigurado lang na sa labas kumakain yung mga iyon and eto nga, may baon akong pagkain. Pagkaupo ko, I immediately picked up my phone from my blazer's pocket and composed a message for Brandon.

iMessage

Brandon: Grab's driver is there. Pick up your lunch.

Me: Already grabbed it. Thanks! I smelled Thai? Yes or Yes?

Naghintay pa ako ng kaunting minuto para sa kanyang reply. I wasn't sure if he's available at the moment pero kapag free siya at walang meetings, practice or schedules, he's doing his best to reply on my messages. Not five minutes had passed, I received a reply from him.