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14- Nathaniel

Finally, I'm in control I think looking down at myself. I moved my hands to check if this was real and smirked proud of myself. I looked in the mirror, it'd been a while since I'd got past Nathan, he's the host most of the time, then there's Nat who is the more depressing version of everyone, he takes over every now and then, than there's me. The last time I was in control was when we were 14 I think, it's been a while.

Nathan: Oh no, why can't I feel my hands? Did I lose control? I lost control didn't I. Okay, Who's there, who is it, if it's you Nat this is not a good time.
Me: Haha oh Nathan, you should know it's not Nat, Nat doesn't feel like that when he takes over.
Nathan: Wait, the last time I remember feeling like that was... Neil.
Me: You got that right.
Nathan: Neil, stop! You have to let me go back.
Me: Now why would I do that?
Nathan: You're sadistic, that's why.
Me: I am not sadistic, I have a vision, and I will stop at nothing to make that vision come true.
Nathan: Neil you have to stop
Nathan: Neil, I know you can hear me
Nathan: NEIL

Oh wow, he is a handful. The alters and I, we're all just the same person really, just different parts of that person, different aspects of who they are. Because we're all the same person I can't really shut them out, they're always there yelling in the back of my mind, the voices can be harsh. Nathan, Nat and I are the more sane ones, but there are tonnes of us back there, screaming in pain, laughing, yelling, the pain makes me stronger.

I looked around taking in my surroundings, we can all hear what's going on but we can't see what's happening, I was in a bathroom. I looked in the mirror touching up my hair, oh yeah I look good. I opened the door and strolled out over to the front door.

"Nathan, now just where do you think you're going?" Nathan's Mum said.

Nathan: NEIL

I turned around to see her standing behind me with her hands on her hips angry. I smirked, "Oh Marianne, Nathan's not home right now." I saw her freeze her eyes widening in terror; that was the first thing I said to her before I came out last time, it's my little opening phrase, most of us have one.

Nathan: Neil you have to stop

"Now, I have places to go, people to see, you know how it is." She stood there terrified and I smiled, "Oh Mary, Mary, Mary... it's okay," I walked up to her and put my hand on her cheek, "you'll be fine and do you know why? Because if you're not I'm going to tell your husband about the... incident." Her eyes widened more if that was even possible.

Nathan: STOP! It'll all be fine, just stop.
Me: Oh Nathan, I was going to let you keep talking because I always do enjoy hearing your pain, but I need to focus right now. Bye Nathan.

"Oh Mary don't play dumb, we both know I know all your secrets." I let go of her face and stepped back towards the door, "Now, I have some unfinished business, I trust you'll be fine without me?" She stood there, "I ASKED YOU A QUESTION!" I yelled, "Yes, I-i-i'll b-be fin-ne." I smiled, "good. Bye Marianne!"

I opened the door and walked over to the car. I almost laughed at how easy this was, she had the same car she'd had two years ago, I hopped in and easily hotwired it. This was going to go smoother than I thought. The one good thing about being an alter, noone can hear what you're thinking, unless you're in control of course, so I'd had a lot of time to formulate my plan, and the alters will be realising what is is right about... now.

"hahahahhaa! Whew! What a rush!!" I yelled as I revved the engine, "I have been waiting for this day, now to go find my first... subject." I drove out onto the street and raced away from the house, I took a sharp turn to the left when I saw a girl in the middle of the road.

Nathan: Oh no, stop the car!
Me: Now hwy would I do that?
Nathan: Please, I think I know her.
Me: Hmm... You don't exactly talk to girls, let alone good looking ones, so who could this be... Book shop girl! Of course.
Nathan: Please, have mercy.
Me: Oh Nathan