ryujin's pov
"so unnie..what do we eat tonight?"i asked yeji unnie as she was still looking at the tv when she turned her head to me.."Hm..We'll eat chicken today!Hey,yuna!Do you want nuggets?"she asked Yuna and yuna happily nodded.."Okay,i'll call them as a delivery now!"I said and she nod..I went to the kitchen and called the pizza..After that,I went back to the living room and sat down for netflix with my members.."unnie..i found this strange and hurtful news about our boyfriend.."yuna said and all of us asked what's it is about.."its about beomgyu was caught with other girl group..But im sure they're just friends.."yuna replied..
"that hurts.."chaeryeong said and suddenly the doorbell rang..i went to the door and took the pizza after paying it..i went back to the living room and place the pizza on the table.."shall we invite txt over?i don't think they have a schedule tomorrow!"i suggested and they all agreed..i called beomgyu and he answered it.."hello?""gyu ah~would you like to come over to our dorm?or you have schedule tomorrow?"I asked and he said,"no..we'll come over!"and i was about to say i love you but he ended the call..i sighed.."what's wrong unnie?"chaeryeong said,i just shooked my head and continued the netflix..after a few minutes,the doorbell rang again...lia went to open it and saw txt by the door.."hi binnie!"she said as soon as she saw soobin by the door..he hug her too,smiling widely.."i miss you too,my princess.."he said back..
"hyukaaa!!i miss youuuu!!"yuna stood up from her seat and ran to hyuka which is known as huening kai..they both hugged tightly..but little does she knows,they are planning something behind her back but didn't know it will turn serious..anyway,they all hugged each other except ryujin and beomgyu.."you both don't miss each other?"yeonjun asked..and when i was about to answer "yes",something hurtful came out.."not really.."and that hits me when beomgyu answered really.."I MEAN YES I DO.."i fake my smile towards him and he does too.."what's wrong with you?"chaeryeong asked.."chaer..can i talk to you for a bit?"she nod and we went to my bedroom for a talk..we locked the door so that people won't just barge in while we are talking..
chaeryeong:what's wrong,ryujin?is there something bothering you?(as we sat down on the floor,don't worry,my floor is clean)
ryujin:i just don't feel good..and plus,everyone literally ignore me..and you're the only one i can talk too since we've known each other for so long..
chaeryeong:why do they ignore you?
ryujin:idk..even beomgyu started to ignore me..
chaeryeong:he ignore you?!
ryujin:yeah..he started to not call me,text me or even talk to me..sometimes,i ask myself if i am good enough for him..
chaeryeong:ryujin..you are good enough,no matter what people say,you are..
ryujin:i am so isolated..i am not known like you girls did..i got less line,i got less spotlight and i have less fans..even beomgyu have his lines..
chaeryeong:ryujin..stop overthinking..you are you..do you need some time alone?
ryujin:-nod-
chaeryeong:just call me if u need anything..i'll go upstairs as fast as i can..
ryujin:thanks chaery..you are the best..
chaeryeong smile and left the room..i locked the door again so that no one will come in..even beomgyu,i won't let him in..i went to my bed and started to cry silently..mom,dad,i am sorry to say this but i feel like dying without you both here..i am sorry i couldn't protect you and i am such a stupid girl..but i hope i can still continue my life..I thought to myself..can't i be good enough?can't i be the one in someone's eyes?i couldn't take it anymore as i went to my desk and grab something..
>warning:this is a self harm<
"i want to die..i don't wanna live anymore..my life is a disaster..and no one cares about me except my members..maybe this is the end?i won't have to live and stay with my parents?"I thought as I put the blade on my wrist and slowly pulling it..Blood was out and dripping all over the floor..i was a mess,i was a fool..i know i shouldn't trust anyone..sometimes later,i lost consious and everything just went black..I hope this is the end..I hope no one would save me..
>hwang yeji's pov<
I was watching netflix with the boys and our member..after the movie finished,the boys wants to go home but was curious at where is ryujin?..
taehyun:where's ryujin?
chaeryeong:she's in her room..she wants some time alone,she said..
hyuka:but she would be out to bid us goodbye right?
yeji:i don't know,hyuka..
chaeryeong:i'll go check on her..yeji,can you follow me..
yeji:yeah sure..
we both went to check on ryujin because we've been watching for 2 hours straight so i think it's better to go and check on her..we knocked on her door,"ryujinnie?are you sleeping?"chaeryeong asked and there's no sound..that's weird..maybe it's because she was sleeping?but she would usually answer with a sleepy voice..because she locked the door..we have no choice but to call txt up..after txt went up~
beomgyu:what's wrong?
chaeryeong:for real..we need to open the door up..NOW..
yeonjun:okay but why?
chaeryeong:I SHOULDN'T TELL YOU GUYS THIS BUT SHE WILL CUT HERSELF IN THERE!SHE MIGHT DIE NOW!p-please open the door..-cry-
taehyun:baby,don't cry..
taehyun comfort chaeryeong as we tried opening the door..after 2 tries,the door finally open and we saw..
I AM NOT INTO UPDATING BUT THIS IS ONLY A FANFIC AND THE PART 2 IS GONNA BE UP SOON!I LOVE U ALL!!
