Jack and Jack one shots

Behind My Face And Above My Throat

So the BAE Jack J tweeted a song lyric that went

'am i the only one i know. waging my wars behind my face and above my throat' And if you don't know that is Migraine from TwentY ONE FRICKEN PILOTS AND I LOVE THEM. My friend gave me this idea because the song is about fighting your own battles in your mind or head so she said to write a one shot so yea :) HAPPY NEW YEARS BTW!!! Leave in the comment how your new years was and ill talk to some of you guys :) this is gonna be one of the last sad ones for a while because I have like 2 sad ones out of 3 now this is the third so the next one i got is a wedding theme, so that'll go up sometime around 2 or 3 pm idk ANYWAYS TO THE ONE SHOT WE GO!!!!!

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*Jack J's POV*

I don't know what it was but today I was out of it. I hated this. Me and Jack had to record with Sammy later today and here I was, curled up in our bed, sitting in silence (a/n: i am on a roll!). I had stayed up all last night, all these thoughts running through my head that I hated. It was about 11:30 am and here I was. We have to leave in 10 minutes and I wasn't even ready. There was a knock on the door and Jack came in

"hey yo- babe are you still in bed?" He said, slightly annoyed. I sighed and just got up, immediately feeling self conscious because I had no shirt on. I slipped on a sweater and I stayed in my jeans last night because we got home late so I just did my hair and put my shoes on

"ready" I croaked, my throat sore from staying up all night

"you ok dude?" He asked. I shrugged and sighed, not in the mood for a pep talk.

"J?" he asked

"I'm fine Jack!" I snapped

"don't snap at me! All I asked was a simple question, god chill"

I frowned "sorry..." I said quietly and just walked to the car and got in the front since I was driving. He got in and buckled up, sighing. We drove to the studio and started walking up when Jack stood in front of the door

"babe, I'm sorry for snapping at you. I love you" He smiled softly and I just leaned up and kissed him softly

"I love you to" I smiled and we walked in

20 minutes into recording and I was sitting outside because I managed to slip out when no one was looking. I rarely ever smoke a joint (a/n: bullshit) unless I'm stressed so I got a joint from the car and sat against the building, smoking. I hated my mind right now. My confidence and self esteem are ruined and my mind. Jack hated me smoking.

"Jack!" I sighed and looked to see Jack and Sammy running towards me

"where were you?!" he said and snatched the joint out of my hand

"Hey I was using that!" I said, sighing. Jack sat next to me, throwing an arm over my shoulder and Sammy sat in front of me

"Whats going on? You only smoke when you're super stressed or just flat out done" Sammy said, Jack nodding in agreement.

"nothing, lets get to recor-"

"nope, we're gonna talk" Jack said, pulling me closer

"fine..." I sighed "I just have alot of like, mental battles going on in my head. I hate myself at the moment and I just am more self conscience and less confident and I'm already not that confident so I have zero confidence and I just... I hate when this happens because I have no control over it and I can't stop it... A cliff seems like an appealing option at the moment" I breather, looking down.

"Hey,I have no clue what to say other than I've known you since middle school and I know how strong you are. It may not seem like it right now but I do know that you will get through it, I pro-" Someone cut him off

"SAMMY THEY NEED YOU"

"I have to go, I'm sorry" He said and got up and left. Jack and I just sat there for a minute until he made me sit on his lap, holding my hands

"babe, I love you and if you are feeling like this I need you to talk to me. I love you and I don't want you sad, ever. Please, talk to me" He said and kissed me. We had a sweet make-out session, nothing too heated. I pulled away and smiled

"I love you"

"I love you to" he said and pecked my cheek. I smiled and yawned, laying on him and the last thing I remember was hearing him say

"Get some sleep, I'll be here when you wake up princess"

god I love this man