[Completed]Dead Beautiful- Ft. BTS' Jeon Jungkook

Chapter forty one

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MEERA'S POV

My heart was beating at a fast pace. I stopped on my tracks and continued to look at him. The grip on the file in my hand had started to loosen.

Jungkook..

There he was, talking with a few people waiting for the elevator. Physically he did change a lot. He was more muscular now. The blazer hugged his shoulders perfectly. His hair parted slightly to show his forehead while his aura was much more confident now. He was comfortable talking to the people around him.

"Meera let's go."

I turned to my side to see Yohan smiling at me, "we'll be late," he motioned me to walk first.

My eyes went to Jungkook one more time before leaving with my colleague.

Jungkook was a CEO now. He has been busy for a week, trying to communicate with all the department heads and making sure to learn things quickly as possible.

I went to his place a few nights back but he was out with some people. It felt like he was ignoring me. He had time to meet everyone and do his work but still didn't meet me. I get it that we can't meet in the office but why is he not contacting me at all? A simple 'how have you been' wouldn't hurt his CEO pride.

I sighed.

No matter what I'll meet him tonight.
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"You're staying? It's already 8."

Chungha asked while she packed her bag getting ready to leave.

"I have to complete the paid leave records. You can go first," I said and busied myself so that she won't ask me more questions.

She leaned forward with a frown on her face, "you can do this tomorrow. You don't have to stay late for this."

"I have nothing else to do at home. And also it's better to complete it while I still have time," I smiled at her to show that I was completely fine. She left once she was convinced that I was all okay.

I continued to do my work to pass my time and waited for the clock to struck nine. Ninety percent of the staff leave by then.

"Finally!" I sighed deeply and cleaned my desk and packed my bag. I needed to meet Jungkook first. So I picked up his personal file and service record as an excuse to see him.

My hands were sweating and heartbeat accelerated. Calm down Meera. Relax. It's just Jungkook. Calm your nerves. I repeated these sentences over and over again.

"Oh hello," I greeted Jungkook's secretary, Hwasa. She was leaving.

"Hello. Do you have an appointment? It's quite late," she explained.

"I'm from HR department. I just needed to get the records signed," I showed her the files. She took a quick glance before letting me go to his cabin while she went to the elevator.

I took a few deep breaths as I stood in front of the door. I clutched the file in my hands contemplating whether I should go in or not.

Oh fuck it.

I knocked on the door quite harshly. Oh you stupid Meera. But when I heard a soft 'come in' I opened the door and stepped in.

"Jungkook."

He looked quite surprised to see me. He stood up from his seat with a smile I couldn't decipher the meaning of. Wasn't he happy to see me?

"Noona." His voice was deeper than before. I bit my lower lip and gulped down a lump of saliva. My eyes became teary. No no! Don't cry!

I managed to compose myself so that I could focus on this moment.

"What brings you here?"

That's what he asked after leaving me here for seven years.

"Really Jungkook? Are you that dense?"

When he didn't say anything I kept the files on his table. "These are your service records. Attest the copies in the file and sign in the service record where I ticked in pencil. I've put the flaps just in case."

I stepped back hoping for him to say something else. Maybe just a simple conversation. Anything but work. But he didn't.

"Okay I'll do it," I stayed there just like that till he said 'you can leave now.'

I'm not the one to back down so I asked what came to mind.

"Jungkook.. are we still together? Clear that for me because I've been waiting like a fucking fool for you to come back while you didn't seem to care a damn about me."

I held in all my tears and put up a strong front. He sighed before sitting on his seat and looking at the big window avoiding my eyes.

"Noona. It's been seven years," he turned to look me in the eye, "I had been through a lot in those years. I did think about you because we shared a lot of moments together but things changed in a year itself. I had too much on my shoulders to even think about anything or anyone."

I scoffed at his explanation.

JUNGKOOK'S POV

She scoffed when I explained myself.

I missed you every time I breathed. How can I forget you when you were the reason I tried to live another day? Your smile is the reason I endured all the pain. Your voice is the reason I stood up every time I fell down. It took every thread in my body to not go to your place and touch you, embrace you, kiss you and make you mine. I saw how you came to my place, saw you tried your best to come to me but I'm still a coward. You don't deserve a coward Noona. You deserve someone better. Someone who is not me.

I don't want to hurt you.. or Jimin hyung.

"Noona-"

"It's Miss Meera for you, Sir."

She turned around ready to leave me. But before she could close the door, she halted her steps, still not turning back.

"You might be older than me but I've seen more world than you. I know why you're doing this. So I'll still wait for you come to me. Take your time and figure out your heart and mind before you finally accept me in your life again."

She sighed, "I might sound cruel but Jimin is no more. As long as I've known him I can bet on my life that he would want us to be happy. Seeing us hurting because of him would kill him again."

She left without another glance.

Noona... please don't do this to me. Don't make this harder than it already is.

My eyes then fell on the three picture frames I placed on my desk. One of them was with my family; father, Beomgyu, Namjoon hyung and Tae hyung; one was a picture of my mother while the other had a picture of Jimin hyung and I.

I picked up the frame and brushed my fingers against the glass.

"Hyung.. what am I supposed to do? Please help me."

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I had so much work in the past few days that I didn't have any time to update. Sorry guys.

Here it is so enjoy!