Narcissa took Draco's hand and led him from the raging battle behind them Lucius ran after them and took narcissa's other shaking hand and apparated home . Narcissa hugged Draco tight tears running down her pale cheeks she looked like she was going to be sick she was as white as a sheet . * narcissa you lied * whispered Lucius shocked * ciss you lied * he said again . Draco led her into her arm chair and she smiled weakly at him . Lucius was watching from the doorway . * look at what you've done ! * yelled Draco at Lucius * why do you only think of anyone but yourself ! * He yelled . * Draco .. * narcissa whispered * this is all your fault ! * Draco continued. Lucius looked around his wife was in pieces his son was shaking with anger and it was all his fault . Tears stunk his eyes but he had to stay strong * narcissa Draco I am so so sorry * lucius was on the verge of tears now * Cissy ? * his wife had shut her eyes two tears seeped beneath her eyelids . He stepped towards her and rubbed her back . Then he noticed how unwell his wife had become she was thinner and paler her smile was no longer visible. What had he done he had joined the death eaters to protect her but he had only made things worse . * what kind of a father are you ! * yelled Draco storming out of the room . * cissy don't cry please don't cry * pleaded Lucius * Draco's right isn't he * he said sighing narcissa shook her head * he's not right he's just angry * she said weakly fighting her sobs . * how can you even look at me narcissa look at what I've done * moaned Lucius * how can I look at you - I love you Lucius and I will always love you ok * she whispered hoarsely * Cissy are you alright ? * said Lucius with terror in his voice narcissa was far to pale to be alright . Narcissa didn't say anything she just squeezed her eyes tightly shut . Lucius took her hand and held it . Draco came in with some vanilla tea narcissa's favourite . Narcissa had some her eyes still squeezed shut she was clearly in pain * narcissa malfoy what have you done ? * asked lucius . Narcissa shook her head violently * you have hurt yourself I can tell narcissa * Lucius looked down at narcissa * you used your Occlumency to lie to the dark lord no wander why you are in so much pain * said lucius softly stroking her head narcissa winced * it's just a headache lucius * said narcissa * I will be fine * she said even though she didn't sound to sure . Narcissa squeezed his hand * you should talk to draco * said narcissa * I'm not leaving you on your own * said lucius * after everything I can't leave you alone * said lucius a tear running down his cheek narcissa wiped it away * I think I need to lie down lucius you talk to draco he needs to hear it from you not me * she said smiling weakly and left him there . Lucius walked into the garden where Draco was * look draco I am really sorry * said lucius sitting beside him . * I messed up I thought about things the wrong way I know I haven't been the greatest father in the world but I truly am sorry * said lucius * you know mother she cried every day when you weren't here * said Draco coldly * I had to look after her even though I was broken to * he said * Draco I know * whispered his father Draco turned to him * no you don't you were never here when mother needed you or when I needed you it's your fault that we got put in danger so why don't you just go and never come back ! * yelled Draco barging past his father . Lucius sighed and went back inside Draco was right he wasn't there and there was nothing he could do to fix this . He walked into his and his wife's bedroom she was fast asleep he had to protect her and this was the only way to do it ...