Tell Me To Stay...

Chemically Failed

 Hi, my name is Azariah Rose.

Not many of you really know me, im that girl who sits in the back of the room and only speaks when spoken to. I'm the one who sits in silence and listens to everyones problems and watches everyone's debates over whatever the topic is in the meeting.

I stay quiet, I listen, I watch, nothing more. My life has never been of any importance, obviously until now. Adam died and I don't know why, but if i could change the circumstances i would. He wasn't the most loved, he was always the guy everyone picked on. He was just too different sometimes.

Our unit is made up of what I like to call chemically bonded lab rats. Everyone has their own click. Anyone who doesn't click easily or doesn't bond well soon gets the ugly share of the bunch. And these rats tend to give all the other creatures the full share including the threatening notes, the rude stares, the secret bathroom fights, etc... The chemically bonded like to make it know that the others are just the chemically failed, and no one wants a runt.

Adam was the only chemically failed lab rat I liked. Actually, scratch that, Adam was the only lab right i liked. His company was fun and his energy was exceeding. We would hang out occasionally after we would get released from our meetings. He didn't click well with the others but neither did I. I guess in a way I'm known as one of the chemically failed too. Adam and I saw this world from a different perspective, we weren't boring about it either. Adam loved to draw; he would sketch out all of the stories I would tell him. He was my best friend, and now he's gone.

Sometimes people take status too far. I mean it when I say Adam wasn't like the rest. He was different in all the best ways, but for some reason I was the only one who saw that. Everyone else pushed him around in the halls, and mocked him when he tried to talk, he would go to his cell with black eyes and a body full of purply red and blue hurt marks. He was always being hurt and no one paid any mind to it because the motto here is "If we didn't see it then it never happened" apparently.

He went to many people for help and no one took him seriously so of course he was gonna take matters into his own hands eventually. But even then Adam ended up getting the short end of the stick. He wanted to change the world but all he got at the end of defending himself and the people he loved was death.

Adam is dead and it wasn't a murder if that's what you're thinking, that would've almost been easier to say goodbye today, i think, but it wasn't. Adam is dead because he killed himself, but that still isn't the whole story. Don't start getting all emotional like you actually care though, not now. I mean seriously he's already gone. My best friend is gone and he wouldn't have wanted anyone to work so hard on a mask just for this moment, so get over it. Today, this moment, it is not yours to mourn.