Figuring things out - Kagehina

-2- trouble sleeping

Hinitas POV

After I get home from that walk witch felt like a million years I went up to my room and flopped onto my bed.

Today sucked. Rachel sucks.

I let out a loud sigh and roll onto my back so I can look up to the ceiling.

Kageama shouldn't be with that girl. And why was he so happy? He has no reason to be that happy. This is Kageama we're talking about. He is a big mean grump.

No he isn't.

I know he isn't. He is nice and funny and a great setter.

So why dose someone as good as him like so stupid girl. She probably can't even play volleyball.

I felt like screaming. I don't know why I care and I hate this feeling.

I should just let Kageama date who he wants and be fine with it.

I could even be friends with her. But why would ever want to do that when I have Kageama.

Well I guess Kageama isn't mine technically. But he is my setter and my best friend.

I don't want to share him with some stupid girl. I want Kageama to be all mine.

Oh no

Am I jealous? Is this what jealousy feels like. Oh god I hate it. I hate that I want Kageama. I should just leave him alone like everyone else. I should agree with everyone that he is just a grump.

But here I am thinking about him like I always do. Speaking of it Kageama is always on my mind.

I mean he is my closest friend and a great player but this is different.

It's almost as if I lo-

"Shouyo it's time for dinner!" My mom calls snapping me out of my thoughts. And in good timing too. That was not a road I wanted to go down.

I hurry down the stairs and take my spot at the dinner table.

My mom sets a plate infringe of me and I dig in. I'm not distracted for long though as my thoughts slowly drift back to Kageama.

God I hate that stupid hot head.

No I don't. That's the problem. I shouldn't care about him and his stupid face. His nice stupid face. I shouldn't care about his love life most of all.

I should just bud out

But I don't want too

Aaaarrrrrrggggggg

I zone back into the conversation at the table just in time.

"And how was your day sweetie?"my mom asks.

"It was fine." I respond looking back down at my dinner.

My little sister starts talking and my mom brings her attention towards her. I go back to eating.

When I finish up I put my plate in the sink and go back up to my room.

I sit up at my desk and take a deep breath.

I need to get some things straight.

Why do I care who Kageama dates for Christ sake.

Wait

Do I

Do I like

KAGEAMA

I think about him all the TIME

I don't like it that Kageama likes some girl

I want him to like me...

Why dosent he like me.

I'm his spiker.

We're partners.

Uuhhhhggggg

Great now I have to deal with this. These stupid feelings I have for that stupid setter with his stupid face and his stupid little crush.

WHY AM I NOT HIS FAVORITE

Why can't I make his face light up like that. Why can't I bring a smile to his lips like that girl can.

Am I really just his partner? Is that all I am for him?

This isn't fair. I'm just as good as that girl. No. No, I'm better. He's my setter.

So why can't I be his one and only?

I get ready for bed and climb in.

It takes a long time but eventually I drift off to sleep.

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Ok there we have it. Poor little hinita. You suck rachel. I'm sorry but my little hinita baby is hurt. But...I have to make a problem to make a story so...yeah.

Anyway hope you liked it. Vote if you want and comment if you feel like it.

Bye my little duckies 🐤🐤🐤