Piece by piece (taylor henderson fanfic)

I wonder...

We were laying there cuddling when suddenly Cameron walks in and surprises us half to death! We weren't doing anything other than cuddling but it still shocked us! All cam does is laugh but I felt like he didn't really know what was going on between us in that moment. (To be fair neither did I haha)

"You too haven't changed a bit" he says then grabs something from a table and walks out " I go to sit up in surprise but taylor laughs at me and holds me there "it's okay he's just getting the keys to the shed, don't get up"
... Did he just tell me to not get up? Does he actually really want me to stay so close to him? My face didn't show it but my heart and soul and every part of me was so surprised... It seemed that someone really wanted me to stay close...wow
We stayed like that for an hour longer before taylor finally said "I think that's dad callin- ... YEAH DAD?" I hear Cameron shout back faintly "if your done cuddlin lets get back to something serious.. Need to get a move on with the rest of this girls room!" "OK!" Taylor shouts back "looks like we gotta go" he says but I had already drifted to sleep closely to him.

The next thing I know: I'm laying on the couch, I don't feel or smell? Lol taylor , I open my eyes and stretch, I was hot and my hand was numb from where I was laying on it, apparently I'm too fat :/ haha...

I then realise taylor wasn't there, for a moment I'm confused, where am I? Then I remember ... Don't think I'll get use to it any time soon. Where's taylor ? What time is it? I look at the clock on the wall, it's late afternoon.

I decide to go look back down at the house maybe he went back... But he's not there... I go back to the spot I started in, I look around, maybe he was hiding ... But instead of finding taylor I find a note ... Really? He left me a note? I laugh to myself.

It said:
Melissa, before you laugh at my bad handwriting just letting you know that you fell asleep and dad called me to go continue working on your room, I would have woken you up but... You just looked so peaceful and sweet haha I didn't want to disturb you, by the time you wake up I'll probably be on my way home or unless you've woken up like 10 minutes after I left then that's not true :)
Anyway... Sorry I left
Be back soon
See ya xx
Tay xx

I had to smile at that I mean... That was sweet of him I guess...
"Great now what am I suppose to do?" I say to myself "no contact with the world ... No good tv...

I put the note in my pocket and scan the room with my eyes "let's see what I can entertain myself with... Uh... Nope.. Nope... Nope.... Hmmm..?" I wondered out loud not realising it "I wonder if I'm allowed to fidle with the guitar I mean.. I'm not a pro but I know how not to break a guitar ... And I know basic chords... A few songs but hardly anything... I won't harm it" I say walking over towards the guitar and picking it up
For a few moments in oblivious as to what and how I'm suppose to use/do with it then I just start playing a few random chords that I knew of and it formed itself into a tune... I was so excited all those times I tried to make a song and failed and now out of the blue it just made itself... I was really excited
I just start to sing random things at first it was silly Non serious jiberish then after a while it become more serious and I only got a verse but I liked it... I wasn't going to show taylor yet... I wasn't even going to tell him yet... Not until it was done!

All of a sudden I look outside the big window and it was getting dark, it was light enough to see without a torch but still dark. "Did I really mess around for that long ? Hmm .." I say out loud to myself again sounding quite pleased with my efforts ...

I realise that I should probably put Taylor's guitar back in the cabinet where the other few were but as I go to stand and put it back, I don't know why but I just get a thought of taylor and his smile and I get the biggest butterflies swarming around inside me, I blush... I wish he'd stop being in my mind... I know what happened earlier and all but ... I didn't want to be there! In that trap! I needed to separate myself and those thoughts of taylor as much as possible... It's a bit late now though because everything that I showed earlier to taylor ... Well that clearly painted my feelings I have for him out on a big canvass ... I can't take that back... And In a way I don't want to because it felt perfect to me but ... Taylor deserves way better than me... Even if he says he likes me... It's not true and I can't let myself believe it's true... I know Taylor's always been a good kid, we were best friends but I don't know how he's changed in the years that we weren't together... Maybe he's had 100 girlfriends and all of them he's played, maybe he makes everyone feel like this... Then he just could cut them off ... I don't know!

I want to love him so badly but ... It's so hard to fight against myself.
Have you ever just stared at a stranger and wondered ... Wondered what they go through behind closed doors? What they go through within themselves that maybe they don't tell anyone?
Do you ever look at a stranger and think "they're so perfect: what makes me think, they'd actually want to be my friend, or even associate with someone so not perfect... I wonder all the time... I wonder if people see through me and see how torn I really am, how much I want to be like others and not be scared to associate with others, how badly I long to have a simple conversation with someone I like and not put myself down or feel awkward... It hurts... It hurts because I know I push people away with my issues when they try and break through my walls!

I need taylor I feel so happy with him, I forget who I am when I'm with him... It's just ... When he leaves even for the slightest second... I remember and so much negative but true thoughts and feelings come back to me and I can't not remember who I am because ... It's me... I'm going to feel like this for the rest of my life with or without taylor... I'll never Be good enough... Even if someone tells me I am... I'll never believe it... I can take insults better than compliments and that's the sad truth about what life has done to me...

I realise I had blanked out in thought and I was just standing there centre of the room holding the guitar, I shake myself out of it and return the guitar to its place.

Maybe if I just block out these thoughts, I can ignore them until I'm away from him, when I'm not near him for long enough surely It will all fade... Right? ... I sigh this wasn't fair... I still didn't know what to do - taylor would be home soon and I couldn't decide weather to avoide him or block my thoughts and just be selfish and love him... I REALLY didn't want to hurt him but either way I know he would feel hurt... !

A/n:
Hey guys, sorry this isn't great... I know it's boring and all but I think a back story and thought as well as the action is a good combo, the sort of updates might be boring but knowing the story behind what a character does is important

Anyway... Here it is💜 xxx
Stay safe
Bye!