The Light You Give

27.

The question had been stuck with me for the whole weekend. Did I want Seth? Or did I want the things he did for me? Every time I think I come to a conclusion my stupid overthinking minds comes up with something to counteract it. Seth and I have known each other for ever. The same time as Bea and I. And Bea and Luke hadn't even known each other their whole lives but they're allowed to date?

We sat in the car, wearing out togs while eating two burritos that I refused to let Seth pay that we picked up after a quick afternoon surf.

"I know. I think I'm going to talk to her." Seth says thinking to himself.

"I think we should both talk to her at different times." I counter taking a massive bite out of my burrito.

"Yeah. Isn't she going to yours tonight anyway?" Seth asks me through a mouthful of burrito.

"Yeah she said she was but not for the night. I'm going to talk to her. Because it makes me so angry that she's so against us dating or even being slightly together. Like I just want to be able to kiss you without feeling guilty about Bea." I say angrily.

"Your still so cute when your mad." Seth says chuckling at me. I raise my eyebrows at him, challenging him to go on.

"Okay. Well you do that. And then when she comes back to mine I'll talk to her." Seth agrees taking a mass move bite and chewing it easily.

"Mission impossible that's soon to be possible." I say fist bumping Seth. He rolls his eyes and fist bumps me back.

"Also graduation tomorrow." Seth starts. I immediately sigh.

"Our high school careers are over for good." I say with a sad sigh.

"They are." Seth agrees with a nod, looking out at the ocean view finishing off his burrito.

"Have you decided on college?" Seth asks me.

"Nope." I say letting out a stressed sigh. "You?" I ask him.

"Louisiana I think is the go." He says with a nod.

"That's good. Nerd." I say taking a massive bite into my burrito as I smile.

"No no no. Your the nerd here. We all know it." He says grabbing my burrito out of my hands and biting into it.

"Wow that was dry." I say struggling to get it back. He takes another big bite into it and pulls back with a satisfied grin. I slap his leg and pull the burrito towards me protectively.

"He does this every year." I say in my slid the sloth impersonation.

Seth rolls his eyes and starts up the car.

"No." I say with a moan. "I don't want to go back. That means I have to pretend to think your a disgusting human being. Oh wait I don't have to pretend." I say with a cheeky grin.

"We both know what you think of me." Seth says smirking turning the car off again.

"What's that?" I ask him with an air of confidence.

"Father my kids she says." He says with a teasing grin. I give him half a shove.

"Whatever." I say with a roll of my eyes as I finish off my burrito.

"Ok but I do actually have to take you home." Seth says starting up the car again. I let out a large groan.

Seth just chuckles and shakes his head as he begins to pull out of the car park.

***

"Periwinkle or burnt orange?" Bea asks me handing me a nail polish.

"Periwinkle." I say studying the two colours. Periwinkle was a baby blue type nail polish and burnt orange, well it's pretty self explanatory.