imallexx x memeulous // 【ｆｒｉｅｎｄｓ】

【ｓａｔｕｒｄａｙ － ｎｉａｌｌ】

to say it's been a hard week is an understatement.

i haven't talked to alex since monday and i can't even think of what i'd say if i did.

since we haven't talked, he hasn't been coming over to help me study for algebra, and of course, i failed the test yesterday.

god, there are so many things i could say to him.

and of course, i can't just because of some stupid fucking flower.

and because i kissed him.

it sucks because i know i'm not gay. i can't be gay.

there's no fucking way i'm gay.

but, i kissed him.

no, i was probably drunk.

but i don't remember drinking- hell, i didn't even get a new stash from will that night.

god, what have i done?

tonight will's throwing another party, but it's not at his house. he may be an idiot, but he's not that fucking stupid.

it's supposed to be at some skatepark which is weird since will doesn't skate and i don't know of anyone that does.

hopefully, it'll take my mind off of all this.