Depression: A Sanders Sides Fanfic

Chapter 1: The beginning..

TW for this chapter: cutting, insults, crying,

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Logan's POV 

Slit* Slit* slit*

'Yes, I am cutting myself.. pathetic I know. I am useless so why does it matter' I think to myself.  I'm cutting myself right now but It feels good.. almost.. I am not understood. I've been self harming a lot actually. It might be bad I just Hope that it's not effecting Thomas. But I do deserve it. As long as Im not hurting anyone else, then it is fine... after all I am just an emotionless robot.

  I'm made fun of and bullied a lot. They all think that it does no harm but what they dont know it's only fuel to the harm. They don't pay attention to me that much. Thomas only uses me for questions and information. Roman and Virgil bully me.. Patton isnt that mean.. but he doesn't like me. He calls everyone his 'kiddos' except me and he doesn't stop the teasing or the fighting, unless it's me who started it. Deciet isn't really there to much so I suppose he's fine. Remus... well that is the hard part of explaining... I really like him alot. A stupid crush, I know, but I remember some of the good times we've had. Like when he listened to me talk about science for an hour. Those were nice times but It's all changed. Now I just stay in my room for the most part and avoid everyone. 

I feel a tug and I know that Thomas is summoning me. I quickly Bandage up my arms and roll down my sleeves. I wipe the dumb tears that are spilling out my eyes and go down.    Unfortunately the second I pop up then Roman says "The stupid calculator watch is here!" And rolls his eyes. I fight back some tears. "Yes I am here, what can I assist you with?" I ask using my best monotone voice. Roman speaks up first before Thomas can get a word in. "He wouldn't understand it since he's just a 'robot'" Roman uses air quotes. I hold back a few  tears. Virgil stifles a laugh and Patton just looks away. I look at the 'darksides' and they are just staring at Roman. Thomas buts in "We were disscusing a sensitive topic: Self Harm" That triggered something and my cuts started to sting a bit.  

Luckily I made it through the topic and we were done filming for the day. We all sunk back to the mindscape except for Thomas and thats when the real 'fun' begins..

CLIFFHANGERRRRR

ᎪuᏆhᎾᏒs ᏁᎾᏆᎬ: Hi,  I finally finished the first chapter! Yay!! ^^ So I decided to leave it there because I have big plans for the next chapter!! Hehe, I love torturing Logan so yea.. uh I don't know what else to say so yea.. Cliffhangerrr! Yay! 

Bai~  and feel free to comment and share you ideas and more! ^^ 💙💙