Pairing - Mairi if you squint Category - hell if I know POV - Mattia's A/N - forgot to mention that recently I stayed up until 4 am drawing Mattia in a dress.
All our friends came to Kai's house, I guess to support me. At this point I was pretty much in a different world. I was disassociating to high hell.
I sat in front of the mirror, crisscross applesauce, absently doing my makeup. Something a bit dark, to match the mood.
They were all silently watching me, unsure of what to say. Honestly I wasn't sure what to say either.
Eventually Matteo said something, "what are you a fuckin tranny or some shit?" Him and Robert kinda laughed. Everyone else just looked at him.
I slowly turned around and put my mascara down. "Why did you have to bring that up? Literally if you actually wanted to know if I was a trans woman you could've just fucking asked. But no. You had to use a slur and make it a joke. Not to mention there's no fucking problem with being trans. Are you telling me that if I wanted tiddies, which for the record I don't, it would be something abhorrent? Do you even know what that word means? Fuck off."
(A/N - yes I'm aware of the irony of Mattia getting mad about people using slurs lmao)
"Dude I was just asking-" "Well I'm not! And you used a word that's been used to shame trans people for going into sex work because no other job would take them! I'm just gay! There's nothing fucking wrong with-" my voice broke. I took a couple deep breaths, trying not to cry and fuck up my makeup.
Kairi moved forward and gently placed my head in his lap, running his fingers through my hair. I closed my eyes and relaxed into it, being careful not to touch my actual face to his clothes.
"I was just making a joke..." Matteo muttered. I guess everyone was giving him a look. "Mateo, if you're gonna defend that shit just get out." Kai said calmly, softly applying my lipstick for me.
Mateo huffed and left. After a couple seconds Robert went with him. I stayed in Kai's lap, thinking what just happened over.
I had just lost my parents and two of my closest friends in the same night.
I sat up and grabbed my makeup wipes, quickly wiping off my makeup before I started crying and made a mess.
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I sighed deeply as I set the last box down, standing with my hands on my hips in the living room of my new apartment. Kai and I had moved to LA together, hoping to continue our careers online while Kai went to college.
I had kept doing makeup, in fact that's pretty much what I was known for now. Everyone called me the "James Charles of TikTok" and I wasn't sure how to feel about it. I wish people could learn to separate boys who do makeup.
I came to LA mostly looking to become an actor or model. Something along those lines. Kai was looking for the same, at least after he finished college.
I had kept in contact with all my same friends. We were still super close, even though we all moved to different places. Alvaro went to Cincinnati, Alejandro went to New York and Roshaun stayed in Florida.
My parents hadn't talked to me since they texted me telling me they were moving to Italy. I miss my brother a lot, and I still think about my parents all the time. Especially my dad. All I ever wanted was to make him proud.
But dammit I'll make him proud, even if he doesn't love me.
