My Secret

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Staceys PoV
I woke up this morning and Spencer was curled in a ball crying. "What's wrong gorgeous." "Daddy gone?" "Umm. No. He just. He just needs a break." "But I was a good boy. Like mummy told me to. I didn't be naughty." "I know baby. I know. Come on. You're going with Keith and Judy today remember." He nodded and I picked him up. I got us both changed but when we got down to Kevs mum and dads he clung onto me. "Don't go mummy. Don't want daddy to hurt you." "He's not gonna hurt me baby. It's ok. Remember daddy just sicky. It's ok." "Here spence. We can watch lion king later on if you like. And then watch strictly tonight with mummy and daddy on." "Really?" Keith nodded and Spencer smiled. I passed him over and got back in the car. I was already ten minutes late. When I pulled up neil was stood outside with Johannes. "Stace. You look knackered." "Probably means I am neil." "Stace babes whats going on. You and Kev both come at different times he's been distancing himself all day and you both look like you haven't slept for days. You both look ill." "Just. Leave it you two." I walked in and joe and Dianne tried asking me the same questions but i just asked where Kev was. They told me and when I walked up to him he gave me a tight stare. "You're late." "Yeah? Really Kevin. I didn't realise. I was too busy sorting a clingy three year old out. Seen as though he thinks he's upset you." "I told him last night he didn't. Besides. You brought this on yourself. If you think that why say it out loud so I can hear it." "Kevin. You took it out of context." "Go on then. Explain what the context was." "Kevin. You know I can't do that. Not here." "Exactly because you're a fucking liar Stacey. You were just with me for I don't know. Public votes. I loved you stacey and you fucking stitched me up. You couldn't care less what happened to me. All you care about is you. I tried protecting you. When AJ was like that to you I risked my fucking job by ramming my fist into his gut because of what he did to you. But maybe I shouldn't have. Because if you didn't lie to me in the first place it wouldn't have mattered that he kissed you. I really thought I'd found someone that lived me for who I was. But clearly not. She only faked it because she wanted people to like her." His words stung. Frosty walked over and looked at us. "Guys. There's a soundproof room over there. Guests are starting to arrive. Carltons here. If you're not finished I'll cover for you." Kevin spoke up. "No. We are done." He got up and walked off. I sighed and frosty looked at me. "What's wrong Stace?" "He walked out last night. That's why I was late. Spencer was clingy and thought Kevin walked out because he'd been naughty." "Do you wanna talk about it." "I dont know. I just kinda wanna be on my own for a bit." "Ok then. If you need anything then my office door is always open." I smiled and he gave me a hug. I didn't mean I loved Sam. It was just that. If I'd have stayed with Sam I wouldn't have to try and hide that I was upset.
After the show
Kevin was still avoiding me and it was really pissing me off. I found him in his dressing room and knocked on the door. "Who is it." "Kevin if you don't let me explain then we are done. This is the last time I'm gonna try. I haven't got the time for all this." "Well go then. I don't need an explanation. We are done stacey." I hung my head and walked back to my room. There was a knock at the door. "Kevin is its you then fuck off." "No it's not. It's joe. Can I come in." "Yeah I guess." He walked in and Kevin was reluctantly following him. "For ducks sake. I told you Kevin. I don't wanna talk to you." "Yeah well newflash. I don't wanna talk to you either. If you can't already tell I don't wanna be here. I'd rather be in my own bed." "Look you two you better hurry up and sort it out. Whatever has happened. You two are the power couple of strictly." "No we aren't. We aren't together joe. Just go away both of you." Kevin walked off straight away but joe stopped. "Stace. We know you both love each other. He misses you. He's only like that when you're around because he thinks that if he gives in it makes him look like a pussy." "Yeah and it does. He started this. He was the one that walked out. He was the one who didn't listen. He only payed attention to the bit that concerned him." "What happened anyway." "I. I was feeling. Lately I've been feeling horrible. Like I don't belong and that I don't deserve him. I had started listening to what Sam had told me ages ago. When he said stuff like I didn't deserve anything or that I was just some idiot from Luton. If I was still with Sam I wouldn't have to say it to myself. And it'd actually feel like it was meant. But Kev won't say that. I mean. I didn't think he would. But with the things he's been saying today it wouldn't surprise me if that was next." "Stace he won't. I'm almost sure of it. But you need to sort it out." "Then tell kevin to actually pay attention altogether. Maybe then he wouldn't have been like this in the first place." "I'll talk to him. Don't worry." I was about to say don't bother but he ran off before I could. Single yet again.
Kevins PoV
I was laid on the sofa in my dressing room and there was a knock. "Joe don't bother." "Kevin I'm coming in whether you like it or not. If you aren't dress put something on because I'm coming in." "Come in then." He walked in and perched himself on the stool in the corner. "Kevin you're not mad at her you're just faking it to act tough. She misses you." I went to say something but he was right. "No I am annoyed. But. Not necessarily at her. I didn't pay attention but when she said that she should have stayed with Sam I listened. Because it involved me. She's tried explaining but I didn't let her. And now she's got to deal with a clingy Spencer because he thinks he's upset me." "Right. Now go say that to stacey." "I can't joe. She'll think I'm pathetic." "She'll think you don't love her. If you want her back you've gotta go for it. She's not gonna take you back unless you show you want it. Unless she sees you want it." "I. I guess. Should I not let her have space for a bit though. Like maybe talk to her on Monday." "Yeah maybe. You know her better than me." I nodded and looked at him. "Thanks mate." "No problem. It's the awesome foursome right? We all have to be there for each other." I smiled and he walked out. I'll talk to her on Monday.