Katy Perry: Let Me Go

Chapter 2 : "You sent a text."

I never knew that this text. That this one single text would change my life forever. I didn't know that it would cause pain. I didn't know.

Words can hurt too. I knew that. But I never in a million years thought that they would come from Russell. He was my perfect match. He was who I was meant to be with. And then came a text.
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I finally woke up. It was around 8:20 am. I rubbed my eyes and remember that I got a text. Still half asleep, I grabbed my phone and clicked the power button. The text was from Russell.

I tried focusing my vision on what it had said. Once it cleared I read, "Katy. I've been thinking this over in my head forever. But I can't..." And then I had to unlock my phone.

"What the fuck is going on.", I said to myself in confusion. I didn't want to read it but I unlocked my phone anyways. And there it was. The text. More than 100 words. I continued to read:

"Katy. I've been thinking this over in my head forever. But I can't continue doing this. I want a divorce Katy...." And in that moment I dropped my phone. That one moment. My whole world stopped. My heart stopped beating. My hand stopped moving. Everything stood still in time. Nothing was real. It went silent. The world was dead. I was dead.

I couldn't do anything. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't speak. My chest was heavy. I was dying. I remember dropping to the floor. And I layed there motionless. I was confused. I was scared.

I wanted to wake up. I wanted to wake up and realize that it was a dream. I closed my eyes. I opened. I was still here. How could this be? I was stuck in my own nightmare.

And then a feeling. A feeling so terrible you can't describe. A feeling so painful that it can't stop. A feeling of tragedy. Sorrow. And grieve. I realized I was sobbing.

I was crying uncontrollably. It couldn't stop. But I wasn't just crying. I was screaming. The pain. The scruiating pain. I felt like a part of my soul was torn out forever. My soul. My very soul was ripped to shreds. And all I could do was sob.

My heart still pounding and my chest heavy. I was covered in tears and sweat laying on the floor. I was nothing. I was absouloutley nothing. I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to be alive.

And then everyone heard me. They heard the screams of death. It was all in slow motion. They all came running in with a paramedic. They grabbed me and before I knew it I was taken away. I was dragged out of the bus and rushed to a nearby ambulance. Over all the shouting from everyone and all the blur I managed to hear one thing. "She's having a heart attack!" I heard the paramedic yell.

From there it went black. My whole life went black. And then I started to see flashbacks. I was seeing my life flash before me. But it wasn't my life. It was my marriage. It was my relationship with Russell.

It was all in chronological order. I saw all the memories I spent with him. I saw me checking him out on the set of "Get Him to The Greek" with Ang. I remember how handsome I thought he was. I remember us on our first date. Us talking for hours. I remember us going going public. I remembered everything.

And then I saw my engagement. We were in India. We went on an elephant ride. It was a romantic date. And then he pulled out the ring. There was fireworks and kisses. But the irony of all of this. Is that just like the text changed my life, I thought that the ring would've too.