Just A Fan // Lee Eunsang

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"I love you Y/N"

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I froze. I was thinking if this was a dream or if I'm daydreaming. What?

I just can't believe he like likes me? He love loves me? That way? As a friend? Or as a woman?

I was too busy asking these questions to myself that I didn't realize Minhee was talking to me.

"I love you as a woman Y/N" He smiled

That answers my question.

I took a deep breath and faced him. I wanted to him to know that I don't feel the same way... I have a boyfriend! And he knows that!

What hurts me more is that they are best friends... and I don't wanna break their friendship because of me.

"I'm sorry Minhee... but I—"

"I know Y/N, and I understand. I just wanted to tell you how I finally feel because I never know when I can tell you, and honestly telling you made my heart feel less heavy" He smiled again

"I support you and Eunsang. I really do, with all my heart. I'm happy that he is happy and most importantly that you are happy" He said and I felt a little bit of bitterness in what he said.

I understand you Minhee. I know how you feel. When the person you love doesn't feel the same way.

I felt really bad seeing him sad. Even thought he isn't showing it, I can feel it, but I love Eunsang and I can't ever leave him. I love Minhee as a brother... not as a man.

Why do we have to fall in love with a person who doesn't feel the same way as we do?

That's the question I always ask myself, but ever since Eunsang became my boyfriend, I stopped asking that to myself.

"I hope you and Eunsang will always be happy. If he hurts you tell me okay? I'm gonna slap his ass" He said and we both chuckled.

It somehow made the air around us lighten. The fact that he still supports us even thought I don't feel the same way makes me feel happy.

I don't wanna break our friendship, nor break his and Eunsang's friendship.

"Thank you so much Minhee" I said and hugged him

I felt him freeze for a while but he hugged me back after a few minutes.

"Let's go back now, members are probably looking for me now" He said and we both stood up

"I'll head home then" I said and wore my bag

"Can I at least take you home? Its gonna be dark soon, its dangerous" He said, I just agreed because that's the least I can do after what happened. And I know he will insist so yeah.

I arrived home safely, I didn't really want him to go yet because I still feel bad and I will miss him too. Of course as a friend.

"Goodnight Y/N and thank you" He said and gave me a small smile

"Goodnight Minhee, thank you too, text me when you arrive at the company okay? So at least I know that you've arrived safely" I said and he nodded

I hugged him and he hugged back. I felt his heartbeat go faster. But I know he is also sad. I pulled away after a few minutes and gave him a smile.

I waved at him and he waved back. I closed the door and watched him through the window, where he can't see me peeking.

I saw him stare at the door for a while and sigh. He looked down and walked away.

I couldn't hide it anymore. My tears fell as I saw him walk away. Seeing my dearest friend sad makes me really sad. I want to hug him so bad right now but he already walked away.