Just A Fan // Lee Eunsang

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"She's my cousin"

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Cousin? I'm so dumb. Why am I so dumb?! I embarassed myself... again!

"I'm sorry.." I looked down

"Aww its fine, your so cute when your jealous" He pinched my cheeks

Eunsang has a kind heart. He tends to forgive easily. Sometimes I think I don't deserve him. He's too good for me.

"I'm still sorry" I tightly hugged him

"Hey its fine hm? I get jealous easily too" He chuckled

"Let's enjoy our day now!" He smiled

"Alright" I said

We rode lots of rides and took lots of pictures. We were very careful today since we were in public and people might see Eunsang..... and me together....

I didn't wanna ruin his career for me even worse if because of me... I know how important his career is for him. Its his dream. I would never do anything to break that.

His fans are really important to him and I don't want him to dissapoint them.

If that day comes that our relationship will be revealed... I just hope everyone will support us.. its hard to be an idol especially when you are dating.

Its like your life is controlled by a contract.

Kpop before and now is so much different. Before male idols can interact with female idols. But now male idols can't even look at female idols cause of those nonsense shipping stuff.

Award shows before were very fun and idols can dance while other idols are performing. Now idols can't even jam to other artists songs comfortably cause it will cause nonsense shipping.

I hope one day idols can interact with each other comfortably. Like female idols and male idols can interact without shipping.

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When Everland was closed, we went to a restaurant and ate our dinner.
Steak.

He literally brought me to a fine dining restaurant when I told him I wanted instant noodles at 7 Eleven.

Not complaining though. This place is fine as in really fine. Everything is too fragile.

I can't even cut the steak cause I can't hold the knife right. I know right, I'm so stupid.

After we ate dinner, we went back to my house. He decided to sleep there for the night and go back to their dorm tomorrow.

"Did you have fun today?" He asked me while we were staring at the ceiling while lying down on my bed

"So much" I smiled remembering all the memories we made today.

Excluding that cousin of his. Hmph.

"I promise to take you to even better dates soon... if I have time..." He sighed

The thought of him getting busy made me sad. These past days were really special to me.

I'm gonna have to accept his busy schedule since he has to focus on his career too. He can't always have time for me, and I accept that.