It has been about a month since the incident in the lunchroom. Remmie has been really sweet since then. He hasn’t blown up and it’s nice but I still keep my guard up.
Even Carter and I have gotten closer. We have been spending more time together lately. I like being around him. He really gets me. We have an unspoken language together. He knows that if he asks me once if I’m okay and if I really want him to know then I will tell him. Otherwise, I say nothing and he doesn’t ask me again.
This system has worked for us. I have opened up to him some about my dad leaving when I was thirteen. He shared with me about his parents’ divorce. I don’t know which is worse having your dad leave and never look back or being caught in the middle of a cruel divorce.
It’s the beginning of October. Homecoming is on Saturday. Remmie and I are going together. Luke is taking Dakota they have been “dating” since that day. Carter is taking Charlie. I should be happy since I told him I was glad we were friends. I shouldn’t be mad. It is my own fault. I’m the one who insisted that we couldn’t be more. I was afraid of the way he makes me feel. I try to push the feelings out by making sure we are only friends, but it is slowly killing me. I crave spending time around him. When we’re together it’s like the dust has settled and everything seems right.
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Our table is already full by the time I make it to lunch. I had to stay over in math to make up the quiz I missed. I walk pass the line heading straight for the table. There is one open seat next to Remmie. I really wanted to sit by Dakota but she is across from me making out with Luke.
Of course Carter and Charlie are right in front of me. I swear she is sucking on his ear as I walk up. Charlie spots me, so she leans in, practically sticking her tongue down Carter’s throat. She does this to get under my skin. Yep! It definitely pisses me off. I have to stop myself from rolling my eyes as I approach the table.
I sit down next to Remmie placing my hand on his thigh. He threads his fingers through mine, giving them a squeeze. He turns his head to kiss me on the lips. He tries to make it deep but I pull away. I don’t like that kind of attention on me. He has been pushing me lately to take our relationship to the next level, but I’m not ready for that yet, at least not with him.
The bell rings, so I grab Dakota’s hand pulling her away from Luke. I need to get away from Charlie and Carter. I have been hearing rumors that she is going to try to get him to sleep with her tomorrow. I don’t want that thought in my head. I want to be the one to sleep with him not some girl like her.
She sleeps with anyone. I tried to tell Carter but he wouldn’t listen. He started to get mad. I didn’t want to ruin our friendship so I let it go. I hope he will see that she is using him. She only cares about his money. Rich guys are all she dates. She wants them to buy her things.
I can hear Dakota behind me, “El will you slow down? What’s your hurry?”
When we are away from everyone I finally slow down. “I just needed to get some fresh air before we go to class. Did you see Charlie sticking her tongue down Carters throat? People really don’t want to see that.”
“El why do care if they’re making out anyways? You’re the one that said you didn’t want to be with him.” I can hear Dakota’s curiosity.
“I don’t but do we really need to see the two of them kissing like that? Do we need to see her mouth all over him?” I am hoping that I can play this off like I am just offended by what they were doing. The look on her face says she doesn’t believe me.
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Falling into Pieces
عاطفيةThe perfect girl with a perfect life and a perfect boyfriend. That's how everybody sees Stella. Expect Carter. Before he came along she always found herself struggling to please Remmie, and to just stay alive. Now that Carter knows her secr...
