Escape (Kellic/ boyxboy)

10. Stupid

After finding out what gay and bottoming meant, I unfortunately had to go back to learning. Words were difficult. Tony was talking slowly and treating me like an idiot, I knew he didn't mean to but it hurt. It didn't help that I was actually an idiot. The fact that when talking about myself, Kellin wasn't acceptable. It was hours later when I finally couldn't handle it anymore. Throwing my arms into the air, I stood up and stomped away, my feet heavy on the ground. "Kellin, what-" I heard behind me before I slammed Vic's bedroom door behind me in anger.

Frustrated tears gathered in my eyes as I landed across the bed, my arms crossing and working as a pillow while I cried. My mind wandered to my past, I'm stupid. I remembered all the harsh words that were thrown at me on a daily basis. All the insults. Every derogatory word out there, I had been called it. It had been pushed into my head everyday while I went through pain. Stupid, idiot, worthless, dumb- My thoughts were cut off by Vic's voice through the door. "Kells, you okay?" He knocked, "Can I please come in? Please?"

I hesitated before lifting my head calling a weak yes. When he saw the state I was in, his worry intensified and he rushed forward, making sure to close the door behind him. "Oh, Kitten, what's wrong?" Vic questioned as he gathered me into his arms, seating me carefully on his lap. Burying my head into his tanned shoulder I ignored the question and continued to cry. "Baby, please tell me?" The tone of his voice made me look up and answer, "Kell- I'm so stupid. Kellin can't even talk good. I- I'm too stupid." My face was then buried into his shoulder again.

"Kitten, why would you think that?" Vic asked in a gentle voice.

"They said so, all the white coats. Telling Kellin how dumb and worthless he is, it's all true. K- I can't talk."

Vic gently pet from my ears and down my back, repeating the motion over again until I was purring and letting up on the crying. My eyes hurt slightly from the tears but I just rubbed at them until it was red. Once I was calmed down enough, Vic rested his head on mine and whispered, "Kellin, I promise, you are not stupid. You never got a proper education and have been through so much. Pain, mental and physical, yet you still smile everyday and try to learn more. You are very smart, plus, you're strong. Stronger than me, Tony, Mike, and Jaime. No matter what those assholes called you, no matter what they said, you are strong and smart. It doesn't mean anything that you can't speak properly. Because nobody ever taught you that, but now someone is, and you're going to get better at it. You trust me, right Kellin?" I nodded my head silently. "Then know that I am telling the absolute truth when I say that."

A smile took over my face and I kissed Vic's cheek, seeing the red color that took over. Kel- I thank you." I said then rested my head over his heart, listening to the loud thump of his heart. Letting the sound lull me to sleep.

***

At dinner that night I apologized for storming off, feeling embarresed that I'd acted that way. They had all forgiven me but my cheeks still heated up when I though about it. Vic said there was nothing to be embarrassed over but that didn't help anything. It got to the point where Vic had just pulled me onto his lap and let me finish dinner there.

It was after Tony and I cleaned up the table that Jaime and Mike left because the turtle loving Mexican decided to stay over. Apparently Vic had work tomorrow, that made me sad. I hated it when he was gone but I was happy that Tony would stay to watch me. He promised to let me watch whatever I wanted and eat junk food, as long as I didn't tell Vic.

"So, we can watch Annabelle and eat popcorn, and-" Tony's excited rambling was cut off by Vic peaking his head into the living room and giving the both of us a suspicious look. He kept it up for a few seconds before smiling, "Are you ready for bed Kelly?" Tony groaned from beside me and I turned my head to see him pouting, "Aren't you going to ask me if I'm ready for bed... Viccy ?" Vic glared and walked forward only to smack Tony's arm muttering a quite 'shut up' as he blushed. I quickly hit Vic's hand (which didn't seem to do much damage) then turned to Tony wrapped my arms around him. "It's okay, don't be sad." I said as I tried to comfort him.

I barely caught the smirk that he threw in Vic's direction as put his arms around me in return. The short Mexican glared slightly then ushered me to our room, telling me it was time to sleep. That night Vic held me tight.

A/N

last chapter of 2014 lol

Do any of you listen to the band 'Pixies'? If so comment your favorite song.

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