FLIPPED // Jinsoo

Story 7: Regret

JIN POV

I messed up completely. I regret everything that I have done to her. I have never realized how much I needed Jisoo. I fucked it up when I said that I was over and that we are done. I'm such an idiot. Whenever I lay down on my bed, her scent on the other side is still there—the fresh strawberry pomegranate of her skin just in the area. My house was filled with things she left for my memory. She drank her coffee mug out of every morning, her coat that she would always toss on my couch. God, I want her back now. Anyway, after walking around my house for a bit, I needed to clear my mind. So I got in my car and started to drive to the nearby cafe.

"Hello sir, what would you like to have," the barista said.

"High, I would like a cup of black coffee," I replied.

I got my drink and sat down on one of the chairs. I took a sip out of my glass and looked out of the window. Just then, a hand crept up on my fingers. I look up and see her, Jisoo.

"Jisoo is that you," I said.

She didn't respond.

"Jisoo, please, I'm sorry," I said.

Still no response. I blinked, and the next moment she is gone. Was I dreaming of her? Was I having visions? I'm not too fond of it. I walked out of my seat and out the door. I then went to the nearby park and started to take a stroll around the area. There, I found a seat and began to look at the little kids playing on the swings. As I took another sip of my coffee, I noticed a woman very familiar. Could that be her?

"Jisoo, Im here," I yelled, running up to her.

I tapped her on the shoulder, and the women turned around.

"Excuse me, sir, do you need something," she said.

It wasn't Jisoo.

"Oh, I'm sorry, mam, I will be going now," and then I walked away.

That was strange; I could've sworn that was her. I mean her hairstyle and the way she was dressed. I must be seeing things. Anyway, I made my way out of the park and into my car. As I was driving, stuck in traffic, some homeless people came up and knocked on my window.

"Hello, do you have some spare change, sir," she asked.

"Yeah, sure."

I grabbed my wallet out of the cup holder and pulled out a couple of bucks. As I reached to give that woman the money, I see her face.

"J~Jisoo," I said.

"You shouldn't have left me."

Her eyes were angry, about ready to punch the living crap out of me. I put my hands up, waiting for her to strike.

"Uh, sir, are you going got give me the money."

I put my hands down and notice the homeless women again.

"I'm sorry, I'm just seeing things," I said before giving them money and driving off.

I made it back to my house and laid on the couch.

"I need to relax," I said to myself.

Exhausted of how crazy my day was, my eyes started to close shut, and I was drifting into sleep.

(DREAMS)

Jin: Were over Jisoo, I'm done

Jisoo: No please, don't leave me

*SLAP*

Jin: Get away from me

As I was walking away from her, Jisoo falls onto the ground. Her head in her hands, crying out for me. For some reason, the more I got away, the louder the cry became. My head was aching; I couldn't handle it anymore. Just then, she screamed in my ear.

"DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

(END OF DREAM)

I woke up all of a sudden from the couch. My body was sweating everywhere. My heart was pounding hard, making me breathe steadily.

"Oh god, I miss you so much, make it stop," I yelled, holding my head.

Just then, my doorbell rang. I got up and opened my door. There she was, Jisoo, the real Jisoo. In the flesh.

"Hey Jin, I was just here to pick up some stuff that I le~

I didn't even let her finish her sentence. I hugged her so hard, not wanting to let her go.

"Jisoo, holy crap, I missed you so much," I said to her.

We hugged each other for a good 30 seconds before breaking it off.

"I~I don't understand, if you miss me, why did you end it," she asked.

"Listen, I fucked when I broke up with you. After you left my life went downhill, I couldn't stop thinking about you for some reason. Please Jisoo, come back to me, I love you so much," I pleaded.

"I~I don't know Jin; I'm not sure," she said.

"Not sure about what," I replied.

"I'm afraid that you will hurt me again," she said. "I have to think about it."

"Please, Jisoo, come back to me."

I then held her face and kissed her plump lips.

"Jisoo, please."

Tears were starting to form in my eyes. I fell on both knees as I helped her hand, begging her to come back to me.

"Jin, you have to promise me that you won't hurt me," she said.

"I promise Jisoo," I replied.

I kissed her lips again before bringing her inside my house.