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N.M Part 46

'What am I doing here...'  

   The music seems to be muffled. Everything seems to be going slow as I look around. They're pillow fighting, laughing, playing music, eating. Good thing Yoongi nor Jin are here. They would freak at the mess and noise. I wish I could be like them... And not be here. I want to be somewhere quiet. Somewhere, that I can only hear my thoughts drowning me.

Somewhere, where no one can see me break,be at my lowest or see the future scars building up mentally or physically. In a dark room where I can just fix the pain with more pai-

"Zoe want some cookies? ~" Mina asks me. She kneeling inches away from me and I didn't even notice when she got there. I swiftly snapped out of my daze and gave her a bright smile. "Are they crunchy? "

"Well of course~" She giggled and placed one in my mouth which I happily chewed on while looking as Nishi and Bria try seeing a male and female duet. Key word would be 'try' because they are making a fool out of themselves. Yet, I smile. I know I have to be greatful. Afterall they are here to be my support team in this 'tragic first heart break' as they called it.

"Neko Neko No! My poor ears! " Momo joked as Jisoo laughed with her. Lisa and Jennie were ordering take out in the kitchen since we were being too loud here in the living room. Honestly if any one came in they would think they had walked into a circus. There's a mess everywhere. We brought my mattress down and placed it in the middle of the living room with a little help of Jungkook and Mingyu. That's where Rosé is currently laying. I'm on the couch leaning on Jisoo unnie who's laying on Momo. Mina is making sure we don't get too crazy and also cleaning up after us, Although we told her a million times that she could just leave it.

If you haven't noticed by now, we're having a sleepover in hopes of getting my hopes up after my break up, that's why it's called 'tragic-something'. It's already been a week. Since that night I came crying the boys have absolutely hated Jisung. Jungkook even threatened him lol. But I told them I was fine. The following day I read over his messages, laughed a bit, blocked him, cried, ate, and repeated that for two more days. Lisa interrupted my thoughts as she tapped my shoulder whispering in my ear with a distasteful expression.

"Someone's at the door for you. " I gave her an odd look as I flipped the blanket off and walked to the door completely curious at who it might be. After all I don't like that many people for people to be visiting me.

"Ginger?! " I looked slightly down at the girl surprised as I tilted my head. "What would you be doing here so late into the night? " I asked as she scratched her neck holding flowers behind her back. "I heard what happened and wanted to give you this" She said softly and handed them over as I grabbed them looking even more in awe.

"Oh my god.. Is the world ending? " She glared at me playfully although I was completely serious. " I wanted to say that it will get better and that um-... I'm sorry for being so immature when we first met. I was hoping we could start over" She said quietly as she played with her hair looking up at me.

I smiled small and let out a breath. "I want to apologize too. I had not right to judge what you wore or call you a slut-"

"You called me a slut??? "

"That's not the point- the point is I'm sorry for also having a childish mind, and I appreciate it if we could start over" Her smile grew and I could feel that she had changed, but after that since neither of us said anything the atmosphere got kinda awkward. "Um... Do you want to come in? " I asked and opened the door to give her space to join in.

"Sure." She mumbled and walked in waving awkwardly as the girls stared at her.

"Don't worry she's okay now" I reassured while closing and locking the door. As they all smile and slowly warmed up the the girl who I used to think negatively about.

"It'll be okay" I spoke to my self as I looked at my friends and the flowers in hand. " Daisys and Roses " I chuckled placing them down on the counter. "How ironic"

"Zoe! Hurry the pizza is here! " I smiled once more and looked at the flowers.

"Coming! "

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Omg it's been soo long. If you're still reading this I thank you very mucho. And don't worry I'll be updating regularly now.