The darkness that lives in him

Chapter 3

flashback

I laugh at one of Lee's cheesy lines but it does make a girl blush. "Lee you're really smooth with your words."

"Thanks that gives me confident to try out my dirty talk. Okay here it goes...", Lee says getting ready to tell me but I cut him off before he can even get the words in.

"Shut up Lee we're not in bed.", I say jokingly. I honestly don't know why he's so nervous about talking with Roman, he is so confident so I would think that he wouldn't still need my help and asking me if some of his lines are appropriate.
He chuckles on the other end as I stare down at the pregnancy test that is in front of me.

Positive.

Maybe I should ask Lee for some advice this time although I don't want him to know that I'm pregnant. I want Nefarious to know first so maybe if I ask Lee hypothetically...
My thoughts are interuppted by a shuffling coming from outside the bathroom. Maybe I can tell him that we are expecting. Honestly I don't know what his reaction will be but as long as I did my part and told him then it's fine.

"Lee I gotta go.", I dismiss him, hanging up not bothering to wait for his response.

I walk out the bathroom feeling nervous but I put on my big girl pants and exit the bathroom. I smile once I see his beautiful self, all my worry dissolving into the air around us.

"You're back.", I say a bit too excited as I wrap my arms around him. I pull away from the hug with the smile still evident on my face. I take a deep breath ready to confess the news of our pregnancy. "I have something to tell you."

"Don't bother.", he says rather harshly. "I already know."

I decide to ignore his harsh tone. Maybe he had a tough day.

"You do?", a relieved expression takes over my face but I still withhold my nervousness.

For some odd reason he sighs out with irritation and he looks angry. Why? Is he not happy?

"Yes I know Divine!", I flinch not expecting his tone. "I had my suspicions this morning but you just confirmed everything!", what is he talking about. I didn't confirm anything. I only bought the pregnancy test this morning or maybe he was just able to tell?

"H-how does that make you feel?", I ask my voice coming out small.

"Honestly I feel like shit! I should've known you would do something like this because you're a woman, you're cable to do shit like this!", he roars pacing everywhere, not sure what to do with himself.

I'm so shocked.

"Nefarious why are you acting like this? What is your problem?!", I shout at the last question and I feel the water works ready to be present. "I thought you'd be happy!"

"Are you fucking crazy Divine?! Who in their right mind would be happy with this kind of news?! Huh?", I don't answer. I'm both confused and speechless. I can sense that my silence doesnt sit well with him as he booms his question again causing me to flinch at his rough tone. "WHO?!"

I'm mute.

He pinches the bridge of his nose and huffs out a breath of air.

"Just-Just tell me one thing.",he begins again. "How long have you been hiding this for?"

"Nefarious you need to know that I didn't...", I start wanting to tell him the truth and to clear up any misunderstandings but he cuts me off.

"Answer the fucking question damnit!", he demands.

I wasn't even sure about how long I've been pregnant for. I mean I last saw my period a while back but I just thought that my cycle was changing but then I realized that they were way too late therefore I was convinced to take a pregnancy test and it came out positive.

"I-it's been about a month or maybe even longer.", I answer with an involuntary sob escaping my lips. Why am I crying? I didn't make this baby alone but I guess his reaction and manner is hurtful.

He mumbles something under his breath before asking a follow up question. "That long?"

I nod my head sniffling.

"This is why I've never let myself fall in love because of shit like this. I should've known that you've never loved me."

How could he say that? How could think such a thing. This man has no idea how much I love him. I love him so much that words don't even begin to describe what my heart really feels.

I approach him, clinging onto his suit, trying to show him how much he means to me but he tries my pry me off him. It's like he doesn't want be around or anywhere near me. "Nefarious I loved you and I still do, please.", I beg wanting him to believe me. "I love you with all my being, from the bottom of my heart with the deepest affection.", I cry out.

"Bullshit.", he whispers. What? "BULLSHIT!", he shouts. He doesn't believe me. Why is he doubting my love for him all of a sudden? I didn't do anything wrong. "You know what Divine, I'm done! I'm fucking done with you!", he says pulling out his gun and its just like the first time we met. The first time he pointed a gun at me. I hated him so much in the beginning. I thought I could never forgive him for all the torment he had put me through but it's ironic isn't it? I looked past all of that, I forgave him because I love him and hearing him tell me that his done with me, with us... it hurts and I refuse to accept that, not when I know we can get passed this.

"Nefarious.", I whisper helplessly.

"No shut up! Don't speak! Don't move!", he threatens but I choose to ignore that and walk closer to him only to have him shoot at my feet, making me scream.

"I didn't think you would do something like this to me. I thought you were different. I thought you loved me.", the way he said it makes my heart break.

"I do.", I say trying to reassure him. He tucks his gun back into his holster and I feel a bit of hope sparking inside me but the way he's walking up to me, with the rage burning in his grey eyes, that little hope I had dimmed. Not liking the crazy look in his eye I back away but he catches up to me and roughly picks me up and kicks the balcony doors open then proceeds walking up to the edge.

I can't even begin to explain how fast my heart begins to beat. Is he going to throw me over?

My suspicions are confirmed when he prepares to throw me over, ignoring how much I beg him not to...

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Eight years later

I snap out of it, the rest to painful to relive.

Every time I think about him I remember everything. From the first day we met to the insults we threw at each other, our first kiss, our arguments to the first time we made love and all the other good memories we've shared but my memory lane always ends with that one horrendous event.

When he...

I sigh out, shaking my head in hopes of discarding the memory.

Luckily for me though, I survived both the fall and was saved from the burning flames that were emitting from his car but the one thing that I'm most grateful for, is my son.

By some miracle I still had my baby boy after the disastrous incident.

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Divine is still alive!!

Yay!

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