"Philly..." I cooed, shaking my sleepy friend gently. He groaned sleepily and pulled the pillow over his head. I chuckled. "Phil, it's ten.. You have to get up.." I said. He shook his head. "Too early," he mumbled sleepily. I pulled the pillow off of his head. He whined softly. I chuckled and brushed the stray hairs off of his forehead. "Philly, come on," I said, tugging him up into a sitting position. "Dan," he whined. "Phil," I mocked. He sighed. "Come on, you've moped enough for the past two weeks," I said, rubbing his back. "I'm not done moping," he said, burying his face into my shoulder. I sighed and wrapped a protective arm around my depressed best friend. I glanced down at him, sighing. It broke me to see him like this. Ever since he started dating that Ethan guy, he's been a wreck. Every time I ask what's wrong, he never gives me a straight answer and always just says, "Ethan".
I sighed and planted a kiss on the top of his head. "Do you want anything? A drink or something?" I asked him. "Get me twenty cases of beer so I can get drunk and die," he said, curling up to my side. I frowned. "No. You're not getting drunk over some prick," I said. He sighed and got up. "I'm going to take a shower," he said, trudging to his bedroom door. "About time," I teased and he shot a glare back at me. Then, he trudged off to the bathroom and I heard the shower turn on.
Phil's Point Of View.
Once I got to the bathroom, I shut and locked the door. No, I did not come in here to shower. I turned the shower on anyway, to trick Dan into thinking that I was in there. I swallowed down heavily and opened the cupboard above the sink and reached to the back of the top shelf. I grabbed the razor and pulled it out, shutting the cupboard once the razor was in my grasp. I slid down the wall and glanced to my wrist. I pulled my sleeve up and my eyes grazed over the scars that were already left on my wrist. Dan didn't know I did this, no one did. I'm so secretive about this depression I've fallen into, that no one even knows that I'm already so far down. That I'm on the edge. I sighed and lifted the razor to my wrist. My hand shook, which made it hard for me to get the razor in the right position. Once I calmed down, I slashed the razor across my wrist. I watched the blood form on my wrist and I sighed. Why do you do this to yourself? I wondered. Well, Ethan clearly doesn't love me. Dan doesn't feel the same way. No one's there. I sighed. No one's there because you won't let anyone help you. I frowned, knowing that my thoughts were correct. I sighed and ran the razor across my wrist again, deeper. I bit my lip to stop me from whimpering or wincing. Once I sucked it up, I did it again, deeper than before.
I accidentally cried out, and I think Dan heard me because I heard him outside the door. "Phil?" he asked. I swallowed. "In the shower," I said. "You okay? Did you fall or something? I heard you make a noise. It sounded like you got hurt," he said. I swallowed and decided not to answer. "Phil?" he asked. I sighed softly and shook my head, running the razor across my wrist once more, but lightly.
Dan's Point Of View.
I sighed and searched around for a bobby pin or something. Why would we have bobby pins though? I frowned, then remembered the bathroom key. I walked to my room and grabbed it from my side drawer, walking back to the bathroom and unlocking the door. I heard a small gasp from inside and I walked in, seeing Phil on the ground, blood seeping from his wrist. He had a small, silver razor in his hand. "Phil!" I cried, and he dropped the razor. I sighed, tugging him up. "Silly boy.." I said. He had tears in his eyes. I rubbed his back and led him to the kitchen, turning on the cold tap. I placed his wrist under the tap and he winced. I sighed and looked at him. "Why?" I asked.
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This Burden I Carry [Phan Fic]
Fanfiction"p..Phil please.." I begged, leaning over the fence, outstretching my hand, "Take my hand.." He shook his head. "y..You don't care about me.." he whispered. He shifted closer to the edge of the large apartment building's roof. "But I do!" I exclaime...