The Life of a Transgender Teen

How I Found My Sexuality

For my whole life I knew I wasn't straight. Even in the third grade. In the third grade, I had a kitty love crush on another girl my age. The thought of  'I am not straight' or 'What is my sexual orientation' never really came up. I just didn't think of It in that way because I was so young at the time. 

   Years went by, and eventually I started questioning my sexuality. I was lost, overthinking, confused and most of all, trapped. I thought I would be questioning my sexuality for the rest of my life. It was a very difficult time for me. I was desperate to find who I was. Overtime, I built a strong connection with this boy. He made me very happy. We became a couple. Things didn't work out so we broke up. I am not going into detail of the relationship for the sake of confidentiality and respect. 

Over the course of a year, I went through 4 relationships. I know It may come off as a lot, but It wasn't like I went in and out of relationships. It took me a very long time to recover from the breakups. I eventually found myself; I found myself by experimenting with different genders. 

I am pansexual with a preference of women. 

A piece of advice to anybody who is struggling and needs it:

I know how you feel. I know how it feels to be confused about your gender identity and sexual orientation. It can feel hopeless, upsetting, confusing, and even scary. I thought I would never find my place in the LGBTQ+ community, but eventually I did. It sounds so clichè, but things really do get better. When I was confused, I didn't believe that things were gonna get better. Whenever I heard someone say "Things will get better", I would cringe and be in utter disbelief. I thought 'how clichè'. But things really got better and I found myself. 

I hope this helped you!

-Kamryn💚✨