Andy Biersacks Daughter, An Ashley Purdy Love Story

chappy one

Angel POV

Hi, I'm Angel Grace Biersack, yes Andy Biersacks daughter. No not a lot of people know. Only three actually, dad of course, Juliet, and Ashley. I don't know why the rest of his band doesn't know, they just don't. He won't tell them, or the public about me. Anyways, on a less depressing note, he was coming home from tour today for a week. Finally! I feel like he's been gone forever, and I absolutely hate being with the abusive bitch Juliet. But I don't ever say anything because I know he loves her.  I think. Anyways, I sat up in my room, putting ice on my ribs from where Juliet was kicking. I always just blame the injuries on school, but actually everyone at school is really nice. I'd actually rather be there than here. I heard the front door open followed by a squeel from Juliet. I just had to stop the grimace, she's like a completely different person around him. Way different than when she's around me. Or more so when she's alone with just me. I also heard a lot more footsteps which meant I couldn't go down and see my dad right now. Which fucking sucks. But I heard footsteps come this way and my door opened to reveal Ashley. He smiled over at me but that quickly turned into a frown. "Juliet?" He asked quietly. He's the only one that knows what she does to me, but that's because I trust him not to say anything. Even though he wants to because he has always hated her. I just nodded and he came over and assessed the damage on my ribs which wasn't as bad as I've gotten before. "Damn." He whispered. "Why won't you let me say anything again?" He asked after he got done looking at the still forming bruises. "Because he really likes her and I don't want to ruin that." I answered like I always do. "But she's hurting you Angel, I don't think he'd want to be with someone that's hurting his kid." Hd said softly. I sighed, "It doesn't matter. It's not like he's ever around enough to notice anyways." I muttered. He sighed and pulled me into a hug. Ashley hugs are the best by the way, he's warm and comforting. So of course I accepted it without a problem. "Ashley get down here!" Called what sounded like CC's loud as voice making me jump a little. He frowned again, "Why are you so jumpy? You weren't this jumpy when we left." He said. I shrugged, "I dunno. Just am I guess." I said, picking at a thread on my jeans. "I'm talking to you're dad." He said and stood up heading to the door. "Wait about what?" I asked. He glanced over at me, "You duh, and Juliet." He said the last part softly. I went to argue but he already had the door open and was gone. But he couldn't say anything. I didn't even think before jumping up and following him downstairs. "Andy, Juliet is-" he started but I was already down there covering his mouth. Dad looked down at me quickly and his eyes widened while the others looked confused. "Who is that?" Jinxx asked. "Juliet is what?" Dad asked, completely ignoring Jinxx. Ashley peeled my hand away from his mouth, "Shes-" he started again but I cut him off. "Don't." I said. He glanced down at me. "No let him." Dad said. I saw Juliet glaring daggers at me so I shrunk back a little. Jake was the only one that seemed to notice this. "She's hitting her Andy." Ashley said. Dad's eyes widened, "What?" He asked and looked at me to see if it was true. I didn't say or do anything, just kept my gaze on the floor. He looked over at Juliet. "Is that true?" He asked. "What? No of course not." She said and raised her hand, probably to run it through her hair like she does when she's nervous but I flinched and backed up a little. "If it's not true then why would she do that?" He demanded, gesturing to my scared looking self. She shrugged, "I dunno. She stupid." Juliet said. I felt tears spring into my eyes but I still just kept my head down. "Get out." He said in a dangerously low voice. When she didn't he got angry. "Juliet get the fuck out!" He screamed making me jump back and imediatly put my hands over my ears. "Why! You're really choosing that bitch over me!" She screamed. Then started he fighting match. Ashley came back to me and out his hands over mine, blocking the sound more. "Go upstairs." He said softly, but loud enough I could hear. I nodded and went up and to my room, shutting and locking the door before sliding down it and covering my ears again, still being able to hear them. A soft knock came at the door and I still jumped at that but I stood up and carefully answered it just for it to be Ashley. He smiled a little at me and I moved out of the way. He came in and shut the door. "I told you not to. Now they're fighting." I whispered, sitting on my bed and putting my head in my hands. He sighed and came over, sitting next to me. "They're fighting because she doesn't want to leave. But she's going to, and she's not coming back." He said, putting his arm around me. I shrugged and sat up, resting my head on his shoulder. "Still, I can't stand it." I said. He nodded, "Yeah I know, but this is a much need fight." He said. I still just shrugged and messed with the end of my sleeves. "Angel you haven't done anything have you?" He asked. He was also the only one that knew I had cut, not even dad knew. I really do trust Ashley more than my dad, Ashley is always there for me, Ashley never tells, Ashley helps. Ashley is here if I need him. Like one time I was having a major freak out and I called him, he was literally about to go on stage but he held off and talked to me and helped me calm down. I couldn't say dad would do that because he wouldn't have. He wouldn't have even answered the phone, no matter who it was. I didn't answer him though, because I didn't want to let him down. He sighed and pulled one arm out and pushed up the sleeve. There was a whole fucking lot more than when he left. "Angel I told you to talk to me if you felt like it." He whispered. "I did." I said. "Hun you only called like four times through the entire tour, this looks like a lot more than just four calls worth." He said softly, pulling back down that sleeve and looking at the other arm to see the same thing. "I'm sorry." I said quietly, tears springing into my eyes again. He pulled me into his lap like he always does and hugged me to him, letting me bury my face in the crook of his neck and cry. "It's alright Ang, it's okay." He said, rocking me a little to help calm me down. "I wish I could just not feel anything ever again." I sobbed, hugging on to him tighter. He shook his head, "No you don't, things are just rough right now but being emotionless is so much worse." He said, gently running his fingers through my hair calming me. I shook my head, still crying. Eventually though,I had calmed down some but they were still arguing downstairs. "Okay this is a little much." He said almost to himself. I nodded though and took a deep breath. "Sorry." I whispered. He shook his head, "It's okay Angel, I want to be here for you."  He said. I nodded and jumped as the door downstairs closed. I got up and went over to my door, slowly opening it to see dad coming up the stairs looking worried. "Angel?" He said while coming up. I walked out and to him. He imediatly pulled me into a tight hug. "God I'm so sorry. Why wouldn't you tell me?" He asked, pulling away a little and looking down at me. "Because I knew you really liked her. I didn't want to ruin that." I shrugged. He shook his head, "You're more important than her. She wasn't worth keeping around anyways." He said and kissed the top of my head. I nodded and he glanced behind me. "How does Ashley know?" He asked quietly. "I tell Ashley basically everything." I said, not looking at him. He frowned but nodded anyways. "Well it looks like now you can meet the rest of them." He said with a growing smile making a smile of my own form. He turned and headed down the stairs while Ashley came down too. I walked behind them though, a little nervous. Not such a great first meet at all. We got down there and I heard Dad explaining already. They all seemed a little stunned. "How did you manage to keep a kid hidden for this long?" Jake asked in amazement. Dad shrugged, bit really having an answer. I was kinda hidden behind Ashley and dad, just sorta peeking out. "Why did Ashley get to know? No fair." CC whined. Dad chuckled, "I dunno." He shrugged. Ashley looked back at me and chuckled. "So guys, this is Angel."dad said moving out of the way of me a little. I gave a small wave and saw CC's eyes light up. "Oh my gosh she's so cute! Can we keep her?" He asked, bouncing around a little. I couldn't help but giggle while the others face palmed. "She's not a dog CC, but yes we keep her." Jake said, rolling his eyes. CC cheered while I had to stop from covering my ears. I hate loud noises. "CC calm down, you're gonna scare the poor child." Jinxx said, grabbing a hold of CC and making him stay put. He pouted a little but nodded, calming down. "Well anyways, Angel that's Jinxx Jake and CC." Dad said, pointing to them. I already knew that but still nodded a little.  "Andy I want food!" CC whined almost as soon as dad got done talking. I swear he was a big child. Maybe he was? I dunno, acts like it. It's funny really. Dad shook his head as they all made their way to the kitchen except me which made Ashley stop and come back to me. "Are you okay Angel?" He asked. I nodded just a little, going over and sitting on the couch. He followed me though and sat next to me. "What's wrong?" He asked softly, sitting next to me. I shrugged, "I dunno. Just tired." I said. He shook his head, "No, when you're tired you get hyper like CC."he said. I still just shrugged again, "Is like mentally tired a thing?" I asked. He frowned but nodded, "Yeah and that makes sense." He said. I shrugged again, "Everything's just hard." I whispered, laying my head on his shoulder. He nodded and out his arm around me, letting me continue. "It's hard to focus in school, it's hard to remeber to eat, hell it's hard to get out of bed." I explained quietly so nobody but him could hear. He nodded a little, "I get that, and things are gonna be hard. But you have to push through them and get through the days while it's a struggle then soon enough it won't be hard to do regular things anymore." He said. I nodded, "Yeah but how long?" I asked, keeping my gaze at the floor. "As long as it takes. It's different for everyone." He said. "Like for me, it took almost a year, but I got through it because I didn't give up. You can't give up." He said. I sighed and shrugged, "I don't feel like there's much for me to try for." I whispered. He frowned, "You have a lot of things to try for. Like all of us, and Crow, Feme, Daredevil, for a future." He said softly, gently kissing the top of my head. I nodded and relaxed a little. "Have you eaten anything latley?" He asked. I thought for a second, not remembering. "Um I dont know." I said. "Then you have to eat, come on." He said. I sighed and stood up, him coming with me. "We're going to Pizza Hut!" Cheered Jake. I made a look of disgust and looked over at a smiling Ashley. "Oh you'll be fine, pizza one time isn't gonna hurt you." He teased. "No it might, pizza is that gross." I whined as we walked to the door with everyone else. I heard a gasp then Jake looking at me. "You don't like pizza?" He asked, putting a hand to his chest like he got shot. I shook my head, "No it's nasty." I said. He shook his head in disbelief and looked over at Andy. "You're kid broke my heart." He said. I giggled quietly while they walked out. "Can we walk?" CC asked, being full of energy. Dad was about to say no but I nodded egarly and joined CC in his bouncing around making him laugh. "Yeah can we walk?" I asked. When they just laughed at us we both stopped and crossed our arms, pouting. "Uh oh." Jinxx muttered. "Please?" We said holding out the word until Dad out his hand over both of our mouths. "Yes damn, we can walk." He said shaking his head and laughing with the rest. Me and CC cheered and walked faster than the rest of them, leaving them behind. "I like you, you act like me!" He said happily. I giggled, "Why thank you, I like you too!"  I said matching his tone. He laughed and looked back at everyone. "They're so boring." He whispered over to me. I nodded in agreement, looking back to then at CC. "Yeah. They don't do anything." I said. He pouted and nodded, "I know! You should see them on tour, always on their phones. Boring." He said. I giggled quietly and an idea seemed to strike. "You should come on the next tour with us!" He said. I nodded quickly with him, "Yeah! But we have to make dad let me." I said and we both went quiet for a second, thinking. "Too much thinking over there! Gonna hurt you're pea sized brains!" Ashley called. We both looked back at him and stuck out our tongues. "It's not pea sized! It's at least a grape!" I said and CC nodded in agreement. "Yeah. What she said." He said making me smile. They shook their heads at us as we started walking quieter. Pizza Hut was actually pretty far away, and it now wasn't such a good idea. But oh well, to far to turn back now. "What's you're favorite color?" CC asked randomly. "Purple." I said. "Favorite candy?" He asked. I thought for a second but couldn't choose. "Is all of them and answer?" I giggled. He laughed a little with me and nodded. It went on like that until it got a little more serious. "You can't do loud noises can you?" He asked. I shook my head and he frowned. "Why? Did something happen?" He asked. I shook my head, "Sorry I don't really talk about what happened. The only person that really knows is Ashely." I said. He nodded but then got a look of confusion. "Wait Ashley? Doesn't you're dad know?" He asked. I shook my head, "No." I said. "Why? I would think you'd go to him instead of Ashley." He said. I shook my head, "No not really. Dad has a tendency to not really talk to me about that much. Ashley though, I basically tell him everything and I can trust him not to tell anyone." I said. He still had that look of confusion, "It's kinda hard to picture Ashley like that. He seemed completely different on tour, or in general." He said. I shrugged, "I dunno, that's how he's always been with me. Sometimes I wonder if he really acts like what everyone says when he's on tour." I said. He looked down at me, yes I was short shut up, and had a thoughtful look. "Hm. I wonder...." He said. I rose an eyebrow, "Wonder what?" I asked. "Nothing. Hey look we're here." He said, quickly changing the subject as we got up to the restaurant. I frowned but still we stopped at the door and waiting on them. It got oddly quiet as they came up, I mean they were all talking but me and CC kinda weren't. I dunno. I was a pretty quiet person, so of course dad and Ashley didn't think anything of it. We went inside and got seated and shit, but I felt like I was seriously gonna throw up. I can't take the smell of pizza, let one the taste. I just have to get over it. Dad kinda knew that, and mouthed the words I'm sorry but I just shrugged. I don't have to eat it, the sell other things here. "Ang, are you gonna just get a salad or...?" Ashley said quietly as he was the one sitting next to me. I nodded, "Yep. That's the only other thing so...." I said trailing off. He rolled his eyes at me and nodded. We got what we wanted which they got three pizzas which I thought was stupid. Five people, eight slices a pizza, that's 24 slices for five people. That's basically five slices a person, how in the hell do you eat that much? I can hardly finish a salad, but I'm tiny. We got what we wanted and I swear they devoured that shit. Holy fuck, I got like halfway through my salad and they were basically done with two pizzas. I wasn't hungry, and I didn't want this salad, so I only just ate a couple more bites and called it good. Ashley looked around and his gaze fell on the salad then a disproving look to me. "Angel, you can't remember the last time you ate, you gotta eat more than that." He said softly. I shook my head a little, "Not hungry." I said. He frowned, "How can you not be hungry? It's probably been at least a week since you at last and you're fine. None of us can go more than a day." He said in disbelief. I shrugged, "I dunno." I said. He sighed and looked over at dad who was eyeing us. The others though were paying no attention what so ever. "Angel you need to eat more than that." He said quietly so it wouldn't get the others attention. "I'm not hungry." I insisted. He sighed, "You're never hungry, that doesn't mean you don't have to eat." He said. "I'm really not hungry. Seriously, I don't want it." I said. He shook his head, "When was the last time you ate?" He asked. I couldn't remember, so I didn't say anything. "Exactly, thats all you have to eat, please?" He said. I sighed and nodded, "Fine." I mumbled and starting eating again. He smiled happily and went back to eating again. Ashley kept his eye on me more but I did end up finishing it and they finished about the same time. "Let's go weirdos." Jinxx said, standing up. Dad paid and we left, me hanging back a little behind them but not by much. Ashley would drop back with me though, so he was always beside me. "Are you okay Ang?" He asked. I nodded, "Yep, just tired." I said. He didn't say anything but I knew he didn't believe me. We walked back home and went inside, apparently their staying the night. Awesome, not really. I went up to my room while they talked more and sat around the living room. I got up there and changed into PJs before looking down at my now exposed arms. God I'm such a freak. I shook my head and slipped on my SWS hoodie. I sat down on the edge of my bed and all I could think of was how much I wanted that salad out of me. I never have done anything like that though, wouldn't it hurt? I mean not really. I went to my bathroom and turned on the faucet so it would drowned out the sound before locking the door and shakily kneeling in front of the toilet. I bit my lip, how do you even do this? Just do it. So I lifted up the toilet seat and stuck my finger down my throat, gagging a little but it did come up. That was easier than I thought. It burnt a little coming back up but it wasn't the worst pain in the world. After I was sure my stomach was empty I flushed the toilet and sat back, turning off the faucet and thinking. Wow I just did that, but I kinda liked the empty feeling. I got up and went back into my room and turned off the bathroom light. I sighed and sat down beside my guitar, stringing the first thing that came to mind which was Baby Don't Cut. I just really really liked this song, I don't know it was beautiful. I started playing it and I couldn't help but sing it too.

"She's only 17 her whole lifes ahead of her
She hates school because if the people that discredit her
Her boyfriend tried to show her that's not how it seems
But everyday she just gets lowered by her self esteem
He lets her know that every night will have a brighter day
She even tried to overdose and take her life away."

I had to stop there though, remembering when I tried that. I took a breath and decided that song was to relatable right now to deal with. I sighed and out my guitar beside my desk, leaving it there for now. I heard firmiliar voices downstairs, Ella and Inna. Okay, so they new me too, but that's only because Juliet had them over and I came home from school early and such. But they were absolutely the best people in the world. I bolted up imediatly and went downstairs, my suspicious were correct when I seen them. They were leaned against the island, talking to Dad and the rest of them. "Wait, where is she?" Ella asked. She glanced around and he eyes landed on me, a huge smile forming. Inna and Ella ran to me and I to them. "Angel!" They cheered, hugging me and me them. "I missed you short shit." Ella teased after we pulled away. I smiled as we walked into the living room. "I missed you guys too." I said. We talked for awhile, just catching up on much needed time. "Andy I have come to the conclusion you are the worst." Jake said as they had joined us. "Why?" Dad asked. "Because, you let all of them know her and not us. It's not fair." CC whined. I giggled quietly and rested my head on the closest persons shoulder, which happened to be Ashely's. "Oops? You know now, quit whining." Dad said. They still pouted a little bit just turned their attention to the tv. The girls had already crashed like ten minutes ago and I was about there. Ashley never cared though, I end up falling asleep on him all the time. He's really warm and comfy though, so I didn't care either. I fought it for a minute but then that got to be to much work and let my eyes drift closed. "Night Angel." Ashley whispered quietly making a small smile tug at my lips as I drifted off to sleep.