I woke up with a splitting headache and sighed. Guess I wasn't lucky enough to just never wake up like I wished. I opened my eyes to see i was still in Ashley's bunk but he wasn't here. By the looks of it he hadn't been gone long but I was still pretty cold. I sat up and out my head in my hands, still really tired. I just pushed the pain away and stood up, going over to my bunk and getting my bag for some clothes. I didn't feel like finding an outfit right now so I just took the whole bag and headed out. "Good morning Angel.", Said what sounded like Vic but I didn't look up to see if I was right. It was too bright. "There ain't nothing good about it." I muttered and walked into the bathroom. I didn't feel like showering right now so I just did everything except that.
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I looked down at my wrists and did a few deeper cuts, wrapping them and making sure they were good before I collected my shit and went back out. I think the show was today, so we'd be back on the road by tonight. Honestly I wanted to be, and I'd missed the last show so I wanted to go to this. I still didn't know why PTV was here but I honestly didn't care either. I threw my bag in my bunk and got my phone off of the charger, putting it in my back pocket and going out and to the kitchenette. I got just a bottle of water and started to the bunk again but dad spoke. "Eat Angel.", He said. I sighed ans rolled my eyes but went back in and got a Poptart and went to the bunks even though he had a sad look and a frown. Probably because i wasnt eating as much as he would like. But I didn't care. I didn't bother to shut the door and sat in my bunk criss cross and are the Poptart, not wanting it at all and thinking of throwing it up. I probably will too. I scrolled through Instagram and just had me time. I sighed as I finished it and scooted away the trash, still just on my phone. I wanted my guitar, play something to keep my busy and out of trouble because I know if I don't busy myself that's exactly what I'll do. Get into trouble. So I got up and went over to the junk bunk, grabbing it out and sitting on my bed while looking through my songbook for something to play. I fixed a few things on a song I had before looking it over and making sure it was good. And it was, so I started playing it. I didn't sing the lyrics while I played, just enjoying the song till Ashley's voice came making me jump. "What's the lyrics?", He asked from the doorway. I looked back at my book and shook my head. This song was a little about him, can't sing them. "They're not done yet...", I said trailing off making him smile. "So sing what you have." He said coming and sitting down. Looks like he wasn't leaving, so I took a breath and started the song over, now adding the lyrics.
"I see you, for what you are. Is something in you're eyes that looks past my scars So where do you go when you leave in the night? 'Cause I see those teary eyes
I am the only hope for you You are the only hope for me too I just wanted you I just wanted you
So stay This time Don't go away Don't go away Don't go away Stay This time This time
You see me for what I am One thing that you can say That will leave me broken The end is near I really don't want to know It's haunting me to watch you go
