Bleach Yaoi Oneshots😍😍

ByaRen(pt.2)💕.

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*Timeskip by a few months after pt.1*

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Normal P.O.V:

It's been a few months after the fight between squad 6's Taicho and Fukutaicho and it seems as if everything is back to normal, except for the redhaired lieutenant who seems to be struggling with hidden feelings. It was a warm and sunny day in Soul Society and the rays of the sun shone gracefully through the window of the squad 6 office while Kuchiki Taicho and Abarai Fukutaicho were working on paper work.

The redhead would occasionally throw glances his Captain's way, but quickly return his gaze to the pile of paperwork infront of him to not get caught. Even though thoughts like:
'Why can't you be stronger?
What are you even trying to accomplish?
Do you really believe you'll be able to make Kuchiki Taicho see your worth... it won't happen because you have none-'
swirl around his brain like a whirlwind.

Renji involuntarily let's out a heavy breath trying to keep his tears in, because he can't let his Captain know of these thoughts. He'll only think of Renji as weak and the redhead doesn't want that, he only wants to see Byakuya proud of him.

Byakuya's P.O.V:

I hear my lieutenant let out a heavy and somewhat shaky breath and I take a quick look at him to see his eyes closed with a slight frown and his hand clutching his paintbrush quite tightly.

It seems Abarai's reiatsu(?) is desturbed, which usually happens when the Soul Reaper's emotions are unstable. Should I make a comment? Abarai is strong, so maybe he is only having a bad day. I'll just ignore it for now and if gets worse try to approach him in a way that he'll feel comfortable to tell me what the problem is.

Renji's P.O.V:

'Why won't these voices SHUT UP?! Is being tortured through nightmares not enough?! I get it it's been months after my defeat at the bridge and I'm still as weak. I train alot, really I do then why the hell am I not improving? Taicho will never acknowledge me if I stay the weak, fragile dumbass I am.

I just want him to look at me and be proud, I wanna make him happy. I've realized that I have feelings for Byakuya, but we'll never be able to be anything more than a monkey and the moon. He's a noble and I'm nothing more than a Rukongai dog. He'll always be out of my reach...'

"Are you alright Abarai Fukutaicho?"

I look up to see Taicho looking at me with piercing silver eyes. I feel my whole body freeze as I admire their beauty as the pierce right through my own hazel eyes and stare straight into my soul. It hurts to look at them through, it's like I see the disappointment in them and it makes me wanna tear up. I take a deep breath before replying.

"Of course I am T-taicho.."

My voice cracks at the end and I flinch at how vulnerable I sound. I'm sure Taicho will think I'm only acting this way to get outta work. I am nothing more than a disappointment to him, he deserves a much better lieutenant. I wish I was better..

Above all I wish I could be his..

Byakuya's P.O.V:

It seems Renji is trying to act as if he is fine.. After my battle with him I feel this need to be there for him, at first I thought it was guilt, that I felt guilty for leaving him for dead on that bridge... But later I realized I had this same feelings when I was with Hisana. And it turns out I have feelings for my lieutenant. I want to protect and cherish him and be there for him, but will I be able to convince the elders to let us be together. And what if Renji does not feel the same...

"Abarai... I can clearly feel the disturbance in your reiatsu and thus I want you to tell me what is bothering you. I may not show it, but I truly care for you and wish for you to talk to me when something is wrong and I will swiftly find a solution to your problem."

Byakuya was shocked at his own choice of words, they were firm but still had a caring and concerned tone and judging by the way his crush's eyes were wide and his mouth agape he's shocked too.

Normal P.O.V:

After the initial shock Renji looked down and fidgeted with his brush to find a way to tell his Captain how he felt. He took another shaky breath and kept his eyes glued to the still incomplete report infront of him before finally saying something.

"Do I disappoint you, Taicho?"

The voice that uttered those 5 words was so soft Byakuya was shocked to hear such a vulnerable voice from the loud and outgoing idiot he loved, but he was more shocked by the words themselves. He slowly got up and made his way to the melancholic redhead and moved his table to kneel down infront of him using Renji's knees for stability. Renji avoided his gaze but he could see the tears threatening to spill from the hazel orbs he loved so dearly.

"Renji... please look at me." he asked in a soft and caring tone and when he locked eyes with his lieutenant his heart sank seeing how broken he looked.

"Renji, why would you disappoint me? I am only disappointed in myself for all my mistakes, all the times I caused you pain. And now I am disappointed in myself for making you question your worth-"

Byakuya gently took Renji's hands into his own and planted a soft kiss to the knuckles on his left hand. Renji stared at his Captain in shock and disbelief, hoping if this is a dream that he won't wake up soon.

"-but above all I am disappointed in myself for not telling you this sooner. Abarai Renji you've had a hard life growing up and struggled through many hardships to be where you are today and I'm telling you now and I'll tell you everytime you need to hear it. I am extremely proud of you and thankful to call you my lieutenant, I want to thank you for being by my side but I have one more thing to confess."

At this point of Byakuya's speech Renji couldn't hold back his tears any longer, but they weren't tears of sadness and doubt anymore, but rather tears of joy and relief. He looked into the eyes of the one he loves and saw those silver eyes hold the same love for him that he felt for Byakuya.

"Renji I hold deep feelings for you and I will understand if you do not feel the same way after the way I trea-"

The stoic Captain was unable to finish his speech when Renji tackled him to the ground in a hug. Renji buried his face into Byakuya's neck and let out a little chuckle before lifting himself into a sitting position on Byakuya's lap and Byakuya also sat up. Renji quickly wiped the tears that fell and look Byakuya in the eyes with that smile the older Kuchiki always admired.

"Thank you so much Taicho, I'm so glad I've been able to make you proud..."

Renji's next words only came out as a whisper as a blush coated his cheeks making his face the colour of his hair.

"And I love ya too Captain."

Byakuya wasted no time in pulling his new lover closer by his waist and embracing him. Neither of the two could stop smiling after finally getting their feelings off there chest and being relieved that the other felt the same way.

"Renji..."

"Yes, Taicho?"

"Byakuya, and please tell me when something is bothering you. I want to be by your side like you've been at mine."

"Arigato Byakuya, I promise i will."

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WC: 1343

I hope y'all enjoyed it and if you did leave a vote or a comment and if you have a request leave it in a comment in the introduction chapter and yet again I'm sorry if characters are a bit OCC, but in my defence who doesn't love a cuddly Bya-kun😍😍.

And I'm sorry for any grammatical errors, english is not my first language so please don't come for me!! And if you request characters I don't know much about I'll go do some research to try and portray them correctly. I hope your all safe during this Covid-19 pandemic and still in good health, i love you all❤❤

-Janine💕