Before We Knew It (Larry Stylinson Fanfic)

Apology Accepted: (Pre-Chapter)

Louis' POV

The plane ride was awful. Neither I or Harry talked to anyone. And Zayn Liam and Niall all took up one row so I was almost forced to sit next to Harry, but I decided to make Haz feel worse and I sat in the row ahead of him. So he and I both sat in rows all by ourselves. I just put my headphones in and turned them up all the way, letting the music suck me into a deep dark sleep. I didn't think, didn't dream, I didn't even have a nightmare. Betrayed was such a dramatic word. It was so big, and serious. But that is exactly how I felt. Betrayed. When you are in love, every fault is much more serious. It hurts. It hurts me especially. We aren't even allowed to be in love. He isn't gay. He will never be. I mean just think about how awkward this is right now. At this very moment I was forcing myself to hate him. But all I really wanted to do was jump his big strong arms and gently kiss his neck. Thats all I have EVER wanted. Why... Why is it SO hard! Why!... Ugh whining about it won't help. I pushed those depressing thoughts out of my head, and tried to think of happy thoughts. How lucky I am to get to see him and his gorgeous smile everyday. How nice it is to have him in my life. Those were my happy thoughts, but reality kept slapping my in the face. My brain came up with excuses, and reasons to be sad. Such as how I love those pale pink lips... But how I will never kiss them again. Why was I so greedy. I should be happy! One day a beautiful girl will get those lips. Someone that he is actually in love with. Im so selfish. I never think of anyone but me, but that will stop today. I have to do what is best for Hazza. Even if that means breaking our close bond. Ugh....

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After hours being on this cramped plane, and thinking about Harry, I decided that the first step was to apologize for freaking the fuck out, and sit next to him like a mature 22 year old. I shakily walced down the isle. "Harry?" He took one headphone out and slowly raised his head from his iPhone 6. His eyes were like a deer in headlights. Clearly suprized, and scared, he mumbled, trying to grasp the correct words to apologize and explain that he forgot to log out of my account and stuff... ----"I am sorry Harry" he stopped in mid mumble. "What?" I smiled "I said I'm sorry." staring into his eyes that dared to glaze over. Haha poor sweet emotional Haz. I cupped his cheek, and rubbed soothing circles onto his buttery skin. My heart fluttered, my stomach flipped, and I felt the invigorating, electricity of his skin touching my own. My love for him grew a million times more, which hurt my heart a little but I didn't mind. What could I do about it! You can't decide who you love after all... When I sat next to him and cupped the other cheek with my free hand, his breath hitched. My heart skipped a beat at the thought of ME, LOUIS WILLIAM TOMLINSON, having that effect on HARRY EDWARD "SEXGOD" STYLES! Stop thinking like that Lou! "Harry, no more fights. From now on, just promise me that---" my voice hiccuped and I teared up "Just promise that... That we will always there for each other." Tears now streamed down both of our cheeks. Harry gave a slight chuckle, then grinned uncontrolabley at me. We both broke out, in such laughter, that I held my stomach. Once we stopped he stared into my eyes, than pulled me into his big strong arms, and just held me. His steady breathing was the only thing that kept me sane at that moment. Right now, right here... Everything is perfect...."I'm sorry aswell." He was so sincere that it hurt.