Sad Imagines

Lay Me Down or Let Me Go

Imagine:

You're in love with your best friend. You guys are really close and are total crackheads together. He makes you smile and makes your day with every good morning text. When you are together you feel like you are in your own little universe. You guys know the most about each other. Secrets you guys wouldn't tell anyone else. He was your special person. You believed you could be his as well.

You know he liked someone else and it hurts you but it completely tears you apart when you help him get with that person. You hate seeing him smile with someone else.

You avoided him. He began to get worried, so you told him how you felt. Instead of being a jerk and rejecting you harshly; he comforts you and tells you everything is fine. He tells you that it changes nothing and that you will always be his best friend no matter what. 

It kills you inside that he is such a nice and genuine person. It breaks you that he cares for your feelings. It sucks that he kept his word and you guys continued to be best friends. You wished he was a jerk that would ditch you because maybe then you would let go of the feelings you have for him. Him being the amazing person he is makes you fall for him more.

1 year later:

You guys are still best friends and hang out a lot. You have buried your feelings deep inside and dated other people but none worked out. You didn't care. You had him.

He calls you one day and says "I'm engaged!" Your heart clenches and you feel the tears begin to fall as you reply in a fake happy and surprised voice. Your heart truly drops when he asks you "Will you be my Best Man?" And as you reply "I'd be honored to" you felt your other half was gone.

You stand next to him as he looks at you in tears. "Such a beauty." He says and you smile as you agreed when he turns his head to look at his fiancé walk down the aisle in her flowing gown. You wished it was you.

You watched the person you believed was your soulmate tell someone else how special they are to him and how much he loved and appreciated them. You watched him with the biggest smile on your face cause even though you weren't happy; you were glad he was. You would gladly suffer if he was happy.

Though you know his love for you is different than your love for him; you know that he loves you as his best friend and will support you in everything you do, so you do the same back. Even if it kills you inside and out.

Authors note: I was crying while writing this. This is based on my current situation at the moment.