Sad Imagines

Timeless

POV:

It was really hard watching him get married especially when I was there through all of the planning. I helped pick his suit and helped him pick the rings. I helped him with the decorations and everything. I was there next to him the entire time because his fiancé (now wife) wasn't a creative person and didn't know what she wanted. I was basically the wedding planner/ Best (wo)Man. I was the one fixing his tie before the ceremony. He stayed with me the at my place the entire week of the wedding. I had to convince him why he was planning on marrying her because he wanted to run off but I didn't let him make that mistake. I stood right next to him when he held her hands and read his vows to her. The vows I helped him write. It was the most painful experience of my life. I could physically feel my heart break. It felt like I was dying. I had to give a speech at the reception and I ended up crying and everyone thought that I was just overjoyed but I was actually trying to keep it together. What made matters worse is that he came to hug me and comfort me and was just whispering "thank you" and "I love you" to me while he hugged me. He went on to give a toast to his bride and then thanked me and said "you will always be my best friend and I know you will be by my side in anything forever" that hurt a lot. I didn't want to stay by his side through the pain. It hurt too much, yet I stayed. I became pathetic. I hated myself. It caused me to make a grave mistake. I called him. He came. I confessed. We did things that we shouldn't have. It lasted for months. Late nights together yet I spent my mornings alone. All the "I love you"s ceased until night when I was caught under him again. I hated myself. God did I hate myself. It ended cause I was guilty, but the pain in my chest when he said he never needed me in his life destroyed me. I wonder how he feels to be happy with his newborn and wife. How does he feel to be happy without me?